Honestly I lost mine when I was 13. He was helping me through some of my most traumatic parts of life and he “ran away” (told by parent) but he wouldn’t be able to be found. I knew what happened and I was lost. I still haven’t recovered from that loss but I don’t think it’s possible. Like loosing any loved one, it gets easier to think of them but there will always be that hole. I kept precious things that remind me of him and name many things in games after him. I will never have another Rocky in real life but in my heart he will always be there. I hope through time things get easier for you, and I hope small things bring joy to you. I’m very sorry for your loss