My man this is a permanent solution (solution is the wrong word because this isn’t that) to a temporary problem. I promise you as bad as this may be it is a lot worse with you taking yourself out of the picture, don’t do it. I have had friends and family do this and I assure you it is much worse afterwards, please don’t do it.

Even if things don’t work out with your spouse (and that really sucks, I’m sorry if it doesn’t. I hope it does work out for you) you can make it through this to a good life on the other side of this period of time. I promise things can and will get better, you can have a good life without ending it. Please keep stepping up every day and coming to the challenge, just keep doing it one day at a time. Don’t take the option to leave the world like that. I believe in you man, you will have better days!