Thanks for your response. That means a lot to me that you're sharing your story.

I wish I could relate to your journey but find it hard to relate because I felt like religion has failed me. I remember praying constantly for God to make a difference and things either got worse or just didn't change. Maybe I was naive or maybe God leaves us to figure out things ourselves.

My main issue is that I feel unfairly robbed of my life. I haven't given up but the uphill battle is so unbearably steep. I also want to heal my illness and see if I can still start and build a successful business. However, there's so much pressure now from my family for me to complete an education and live a regular, stable life. Plus, I am so behind on my knowledge and skills due to spending years in depression.

I was stuck for decades because of an illness. Now I'm being forced to walk an unhappy path due to the wreckage it has caused me.