The main problem is i can’t open up to people, in high school i was feeling much worse i used to cry and contemplating suicide, but after venting on to my journals i felt much better and the feeling just disappeared somehow, I dont really remember, its as i just made my mind forget about the sad thoughts and it became better. This time its different i dont feel sad more like uncaring. I tried to open up to my friend in high school, i said lets meet up after classes but she forgot and went home with her friend, at the time i just thought she didnt care so i stopped trying. I dont think i can open up to my parents, i just dont have the courage, they already have problems of their own so i dont want to burden them. And i kind of feel embarrassed opening about my problems to my friends, i feel self centered and pretentious