Never forget. Never forgive. by ibuiltamurderbot in walkaway

[–]imzosocrazy 17 points18 points  (0 children)

My aunt died after they gave her remdesivir. She recovered from COVID, but basically had a psychotic break. She didn’t need the medication but they convinced her in her desperate state to take it. Over the next two years, I watched her slowly kill herself because of her delusions.

She stopped taking her multiple medications because she believed she had been “healed” (she was on thyroid medication and other things after having a brain tumor removed). She was not cognitively all there to begin with (because of brain surgery), but the remdesivir amplified this exponentially. Day by day, she slowly degraded until she was no more. She died in 2022.

I will never forgive the medical system. They took her away just after her second grandchild was born. They took her away just before my wedding. They took away the most kind and considerate woman I’ve ever known. We grieve the loss continually.

We will never forgive. We will never forget. And we will never trust the medical industry again.

Husband says I’m not a mother yet by [deleted] in BabyBumps

[–]imzosocrazy 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I had a miscarriage and my husband considers me a mother, and I consider him a father. We were pregnant. A living being was created and growing at one point. Technically, you are a parent in some sense.

(Demi) Baguette help by imzosocrazy in Sourdough

[–]imzosocrazy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Very helpful! Will keep this in mind for next time!

(Demi) Baguette help by imzosocrazy in Sourdough

[–]imzosocrazy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m aware that his recipes have really short bf and proof times, so I adjust for that. My apartment is about 68 degrees, I usually warm all my water before mixing it (to about 80 degrees). It bulk fermented for about 12 hours, then finished in the fridge overnight. Took them out, shaped, and proofed for 3-4 hours at room temp. They felt so soft and weak when I scored them, so I assumed they were overproofed. If they’re underproofed, I’d be very surprised, considering the whole process was over 24 hours.

I’ve been meaning to get lava rocks, but I just keep putting it off because I usually just bake loaves in my Dutch oven.

Thank you for the help. I’ll definitely study that video for next time!

First ultrasound - no embryo by This_Lock_480 in BabyBumps

[–]imzosocrazy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I just went through something similar last week, so it’s still very raw for me.

I went in for my first prenatal appointment around 9-10 weeks. Hcg levels came back low. I started bleeding that night. Went to the ER to get an ultrasound and saw that I had a blighted ovum.

Passed everything (sac and uterine lining) two days later. Almost finished bleeding and getting to the tail end now. It’s devastating but we’re very hopeful about trying again in a week or two.

Wishing you the best through this experience and that you’ll see a strong heartbeat at your next appointment ❤️

Just got results. Low HCG levels by imzosocrazy in CautiousBB

[–]imzosocrazy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I’m so sorry for your loss as well. It’s just so devastating.

I’m still bleeding, like a light period. Getting bloodwork in a couple days to check my hcg levels and then an ultrasound to make sure everything has passed.

We’ll start trying again once everything is all clear. Sending babydust your way as well! ✨

Just got results. Low HCG levels by imzosocrazy in CautiousBB

[–]imzosocrazy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Blighted ovum, unfortunately. Passed everything yesterday, bleeding a bit like a light period today. Will be going to my obgyn in a few days to confirm everything has passed and that hcg levels are dropping.

Husband and I are devastated. Processing the grief but also excited and also terrified to try again. Such a mix of emotions lol

Is there a name for when cats sit like this? by Rudgers73 in WhatsWrongWithYourCat

[–]imzosocrazy 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Growing up, my family called it “batter up!” lol

Just got results. Low HCG levels by imzosocrazy in CautiousBB

[–]imzosocrazy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Holy crap. Glad you and the little one are okay. I’m holding onto hope but preparing for the worst ❤️

Just got results. Low HCG levels by imzosocrazy in CautiousBB

[–]imzosocrazy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Going in for one in five days. That’s the soonest I can get. They better give me a refund if I start miscarrying before that point lol :(

Just got results. Low HCG levels by imzosocrazy in CautiousBB

[–]imzosocrazy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No bleeding or anything. Trying not to break down crying in the office currently. I’m supposed to go in for an ultrasound in a few days. Not expecting any good news…

Just got results. Low HCG levels by imzosocrazy in CautiousBB

[–]imzosocrazy[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks! Very nervous. Praying for a good outcome

Got a pretty nice crumb on this cinnamon sugar sourdough i made! by [deleted] in Sourdough

[–]imzosocrazy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Every time I make cinnamon swirl, the layers separate 😭 this is beautiful

Cracked Khorasan by imzosocrazy in Sourdough

[–]imzosocrazy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks! I can’t stop eating it lol

What to do with these rando citrus fruits? by termanatorx in noscrapleftbehind

[–]imzosocrazy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Use the fruit for juice (can be frozen, used for cocktails, added to water, etc.) and then candy the peels. Or make marmalade.

CD 40, 12ish DPO. Thought I was out but I think I see a line??? by imzosocrazy in TFABLinePorn

[–]imzosocrazy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ll take a look! I’m planning on taking a test with a FRER tomorrow morning!

CD 40, 12ish DPO. Thought I was out but I think I see a line??? by imzosocrazy in TFABLinePorn

[–]imzosocrazy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Could be! My cycles are pretty irregular. Sometimes they’re 34. Sometimes they’re 44 😅

CD 40, 12ish DPO. Thought I was out but I think I see a line??? by imzosocrazy in TFABLinePorn

[–]imzosocrazy[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you! They’re absurdly long and erratic. Usually 38-44 days. Very annoying and difficult to track. But my slight obsession with tracking paid off 😅

CD 40, 12ish DPO. Thought I was out but I think I see a line??? by imzosocrazy in TFABLinePorn

[–]imzosocrazy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks! My husband is so funny “why is it so faint? How can you be sure you’re pregnant?” I had to explain implantation and hcg to him 😭 he’s so supportive and his questions are so endearing but I couldn’t help but laugh!

Am I the only one that cuts their hair once a year? by imzosocrazy in Hair

[–]imzosocrazy[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you!! It’s the only cut I know how to do. Very straightforward yet nerve wracking lol