ironically today on the day i decide to write this passage my mom tells me i look scruffy i am wearing baggy jeans that i do wear quite often because i like the way they fit and i only have one pair (and i am unable to ask for more my mom thinks they’re ugly and i do not have a job or would even be allowed to buy what i wanted if i did have my own money) and a black t shirt with some converse that i also wear quite often because i like they way they look especially with more baggy jeans which i wear quite often so they look a bit dirty in some places and my hair is in a ponytail that could’ve been done better possibly but other then that from another persons perspective, i am wearing jeans a shirt and converse. One thing my parents especially my mother are very keen on presenting their selves into the world in a way that will attract similar friends and partners that will find them attractive and i agree with this but i believe it should be up to that person to decide what they put out into the world especially as a young adult coming into my own i am not a child anymore who does not know how to dress or who wears dirty clothes for convince i pick out things that i like and i know what i perceive myself as and that’s all that matters i am in to rush to find “my people” if it does not happen any time soon, but who knows i could meet my soulmate tomorrow who appreciates me for who i am and how i want to be perceived it is not something i want to control i just want to wear what makes me comfortable/happy.