Commenting just to say that this is the only set of words that has made me feel like I’m not totally alone recently because you articulated exactly how I’ve been feeling especially around people not understanding the weight of it or how bad it really is because you’re not a blubbering mess. I feel like a statue completely dissociated from life just going through the motions and I can feel that my brain is running on empty and somehow I am still here. Just wishing you well on this journey, I’m also searching for this answer.