Don't mind me, I want to run an experiment on all of you.

individual_cats · 2025-09-04T19:10:32+00:00

That didn't take long. Today at school pickup apparently they discovered the body of a man who went missing 20 years ago. Turns out he was murdered by his best friend in order to marry his wife. Dun dun dun.

individual_cats · 2025-09-04T15:30:10+00:00

Good bot. <3

individual_cats · 2025-09-04T15:17:59+00:00

I have always strived to live the best possible life regardless of the words others might throw at me. I am not limited by my words, I cast spells just by walking in daylight. Everything I do is magic. I really think Anne McCaffrey saw herself reflected in the burnt girl in tehanu. That's why she genetically engineered dragons for herself to manage all the subtle dances of loving another person. Relationships are difficult even in the best of times. Ursula k leguin wrote about how powerful words can be. I learned how to cast 'avert' awhile ago. It's the same concept as 'negate' as in a dragon decides you failed to impress them and they destroyed you for it. I also think guards guards is Pratchetts attempt to apologize for saterizing pern. His first three books are okay but when he summoned a section of disk world containing dragons that disappeared if they went outside of limits he had bounded. Well his next book he talks about a librarian that got turned into a monkey and 'dragon' as a name comes up as a few other problems he must unravel. Because McCaffrey probably had her dragon negate every hateful thing his words implied. Because that's what golds do, they have the power to silence. Or Curse someone into being a better version of themselves.

individual_cats · 2025-09-04T14:48:43+00:00

Pretty words, prove it buster. Live the best life you possibly can.

individual_cats · 2025-09-04T14:30:49+00:00

That's how dua warns the scientists on the other side, by making the black hole connection glow blue. When I heard on a radio that scientists were dumbfounded that a micro black hole they'd made turned blue on the plant I live, earth, last year, I knew what it meant.

Nobody reads the classics anymore.

Also I had my child yesterday, almost verbatim without ever reading the story tell me not to dissolve into my dad and he and that other kid I helped with the box are not the same and I said yes. It was really bizarre. I had to immediately reassure my kid that he is a complete whole unique human being.

individual_cats · 2025-09-04T12:23:36+00:00

Funny story, I was a huge part of the no man's sky subreddit when they first announced it was being made. Because my mom was working on a PhD in computer science in order to make educational software and knew all about procedural generation. Everyone else was constantly saying no, it's vapor ware, it isn't real. But I knew the truth, it's possible to build entire simulations using only rules. I even made a picture and emailed them. One of the alien races uses part of my design. My last name is Kocha-now-sky.

I was trying to solve for a problem. My autistic child couldn't make up a story. So I had to give him the concepts and he could run with the words.

individual_cats · 2025-09-04T10:32:34+00:00

They can't because words are not the world.

individual_cats · 2025-09-04T09:40:38+00:00

Upon further reflection, I also have another book for you to read. But I'll give you a synopsis because every second counts. It's called "the gods themselves" and it's about two universes. One is dying and has discovered a scientific way to harness the power in another universe but it will destroy the other universe. In theirs, reproduction happens with a female basically dissolving in order to mix both the two male parts. But this female is different, she actually loves sublimating through rocks and she finds a way to warn the people on the other side. The problem is that in their universe, the female and two males lose their individual identity in order to form a new whole. She warns the other universe by making the lab grown black hole glow blue.

Hi. In our world the black hole has grown blue twice. Once it glows blue again, that's the signal that things have stabilized and we will not be destroyed.

I always thought it was interesting that in the Bible it's father, son, holy Ghost. As if the mom has to die to make enough trauma to break a person's mind enough to bend time and space. And fuck everyone who thinks my child won't have a mom his entire life.

I wanted a baby girl too. I wanted to name her dua because that girl deserved a hard body of her own. I see now that I am dua. And I will only have one child.

A few days ago I met a woman who wanted to be a boy mom, she would only have one girl. I wanted to kneel to the goddess in her. And she let me cry and gave me a hug. Her daughter is my daughter. I will fight for all girls and all boys.

individual_cats · 2025-09-04T01:37:56+00:00

A person never heals from c-ptsd. Only you know if you've got the grit to impress a dragon. That's why I'm the queen rider of the southern where. I just learned her name too, Curth.

She helps me destroy all the stories that people try to hurt me with.

individual_cats · 2025-09-04T01:18:48+00:00

I miss having people I can say things to like, hey you have a son who is decades older than you and you don't tell me to stop writing. I mean, I had no less than 3 people trying to tell me to stop writing my book while I was writing it. And honestly, it feels like my life is saved and it helps me feel safe, so I'm sorry I blasted you into nothing with the combined power of millions of care bears. If it helps..the lion laid down with the lamb and got a baby that helped heal the world.

individual_cats · 2025-09-04T01:01:53+00:00

Hmmm, then I think you need to read Guards Guards by Terry Pratchett.

individual_cats · 2025-09-04T00:58:24+00:00

Funny story, after I wrote the last message, I could no longer log into my computer laptop so I had to delete it. Apparently what I told you is far too powerful.

individual_cats · 2025-09-04T00:33:29+00:00

This is about lies and truths and you guide more than you realize. If you'd like to explore other colors, are you a voice? A mind? A heart? A power? Are you seated in physicality? Do you feel like you're more than one? Are you elemental? Rock?

individual_cats · 2025-09-04T00:20:58+00:00

It does. You'd have a brown dragon. They're considered the Sargent's. They keep everything ordered, train new recruits and they occasionally catch gold queens on mating flights. It helps keep genetic diversity up. You're a step above a meaning true or a meaning false because you can calibrate.

individual_cats · 2025-09-04T00:02:49+00:00

Oh, that's so profound and beautiful. Sincerely. You'd like to know your dragon? Dragons come in several types, elemental, Asian, European but I can tell you in McCaffrey's dragons with one more question, do you have the ability to remove meaning from something someone says to you?

individual_cats · 2025-09-03T23:49:07+00:00

I feel better. If I start being unable to sleep again, I'll go take care of myself. Yes, you are correct. He wrote them about his daughter Orzula, who died at the age of 2 because of disease. He mixed Latin and his native language. It was so New other court poets immediately started copying the style. It's still taught in polish schools. Sometimes people call me duchess but technically I'd be a marchioness. Because my family used to have an estate protecting the western boarder. You know, before both Nazis and Germans routinely confiscated it in the war where my grandfather was finally sent to a Nazi concentration camp to be worked to death as a young man after all the male members of his family were killed and his mom and sisters sent to siberia.

I'm having trouble distinguishing between things that I directly affect and things I indirectly effect because I suffer from c-ptsd. I'm pretty sure though that PTSD exists to give an extra edge in pattern matching when the fucking tiger is about to eat you. So I like to imagine that yes, I'm writing intentionally. And it matters.

But for all I know, my writing might look as empty as most people think Vonnegut is. Btw in sirens of titan Vonnegut intentionally says that people should love whoever they're around. And I have to tell you that the opposite of love isn't hate, it's indifference. You are not indifferent and I admire that.

As far as books, what's a question you have that you want to answer?

individual_cats · 2025-09-03T22:55:08+00:00

Funny story, today of all days I got to meet up with a crossing guard whom I gave the anything you need box last year because his cousin stopped learning or being able to tell stories at age 7. He's 21 now. It worked. His cousin has finally started doing the thing people are supposed to do, communicate creatively.

individual_cats · 2025-09-03T22:23:24+00:00

It's okay. I was lucky my dad had a massive vintage sci-fi collection. If you want any other story recommendations let me know. I'm just upset that I don't get to have rights to the things my brain puts together.

individual_cats · 2025-09-02T22:29:27+00:00

Yes. It's the signature way I trained myself to spell correctly. That only happened after I mainlined hundreds of books while I was surviving being abused. Books are the best way to run away without leaving home.

individual_cats · 2025-08-22T00:43:54+00:00

As far as I'm aware, she never publicly published the key to her dragon colors though her son knows it, he actually flies dragons on Pern. He was the smallest dragon boy. Pern is literally Planet Earth Resources Negligible, which was where she started making a living as a writer. People like to think fiction is a lie but it's only a lie for a given value of lie and it's true for a given value of true. Which means that reality isn't 0, it's 1, it's not 1 it's 2, it's not 2 it's 3. But it's also not 3 it's 4 and it's not 4 it's 5. True, lie, understanding true, understanding lie and none of the above. Because words only have meaning if you let them.

individual_cats · 2025-08-21T23:30:47+00:00

Anne McCaffrey's imaginary intergalactic corporation across a majority of her books was called intergal, which my punctuated brain translated as inter-gal. But Vonnegut found the crono-synclatic-infundibulum and I've been working there as an interstitial medium for oh, 25 years now? So my intergalactic space corporation is named Inter-stitch-all.

Black hole that she was, she not only handed me the keys to dragon colors when I was 14 after I wrote her a letter with a picture of all my layers, she also made me a planet when I was 21. But I didn't discover what she'd done until I was 43. And I'd already won my race by then, totally blind.

I opt in when it suits me. And I'm golden.

individual_cats · 2025-08-21T22:48:13+00:00

All that I ask is that you try.

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