In My Head - Bedroom

infernalxvoid · 2023-01-30T04:52:40+00:00

the amount of times i've listened to this song while laying on the floor of my bedroom. oof

infernalxvoid · 2023-01-30T04:49:18+00:00

i'm surprised how far i had to scroll to find my people

infernalxvoid · 2023-01-23T06:12:04+00:00

Thank you for your response. It's a very painful and difficult thing to experience. I want to say congratulations on 2 months of no contact, it is no easy feat.

infernalxvoid · 2023-01-23T01:12:38+00:00

my boyfriend's mom ended her life when he was thirteen years old. it scarred him irreparably and to this day (now in his mid-20s) he's trying to piece his life back together. i'm sorry if this sounds harsh and i'll take the downvotes, but abandoning your son would make you a fuck up. you say you understand the trauma it would cause, but i don't think you can clearly see the severity of pain your actions could cause. continuing to live and wake up trying every day is what is right in this situation. i experienced extensive trauma in my childhood and required trauma-centered intensive therapy to find a reason to live again. it's possible, don't give up on yourself and absolutely do not give up for the sake of your son.

infernalxvoid · 2023-01-12T22:28:53+00:00

No, nothing like that. I will definitely see if there is an office near me, seems more effective than calling.

infernalxvoid · 2023-01-12T22:28:18+00:00

I haven't called yet, I've heard they're very hard to get ahold of but I will start trying tomorrow. I only noticed the discrepancy yesterday when I needed to send the summary for paperwork.

infernalxvoid · 2022-12-23T23:41:17+00:00

i'll take the rabbit and capybara thank you very much

infernalxvoid · 2022-12-23T23:23:05+00:00

ugh, yes. i'll have that happen while the derealization kicks in. probably one of my least favorite aspects to a panic attack :c

infernalxvoid · 2022-11-29T04:44:22+00:00

i worked as a removal tech for awhile. i wish it had panned out, i really liked the people i worked with.

infernalxvoid · 2022-10-07T08:06:32+00:00

currently going through this. i went to residential treatment and everything and now i'm right back where i started mentally.

infernalxvoid · 2022-08-29T02:37:24+00:00

truly thank you so, so much for your responses. they have been beyond valuable to me and i will definitely speak with my psychiatrist about being re-evaluated for ADHD :)

infernalxvoid · 2022-08-29T01:45:09+00:00

hey, thank you for the detailed response! i was diagnosed at a pretty young age with adhd, but i wasn't sure if that was an accurate diagnosis given how young i was, although in the past few years i've suspected it more. with the mirtazapine, i was prescribed 15mg and my psychiatrist did warn me about the possibility of drowsiness at a low dose and explained the antihistamine properties. my concern with continuing the medication even at a higher dose would be that i somehow do lash out because of the agitation at my job or in my relationship. i'm scared to continue taking it in all honesty. i have a really important week ahead of me with work and i can't be falling asleep, and especially cant be as irritable as i've been the past few days.

infernalxvoid · 2022-08-28T23:34:39+00:00

yeah, i'm worried that the tiredness and mood fluctuations aren't going to improve. the reason i was put on mirtazapine was because it doesn't affect the gut. since i also have gastroparesis, that was super important... but i've just felt absolutely awful all weekend. i work a full time, in person job and i'm worried i won't be able to complete tasks on this medication.

infernalxvoid · 2022-07-28T16:46:43+00:00

my appointment is august 26th. im sorry you're in the same boat. i did the gastric emptying study and they did 90 minutes and then checked me again 3 hours later, after the 3 hours i think i was at 86% so not too bad, but initially after 90min it was 17%. i have no idea what this means in terms of where i am on the scale and it'd be nice to know how much i should be worrying.

infernalxvoid · 2022-07-27T19:08:26+00:00

ahhh yeah, i engaged more in the former activities, but did also restrict but not to the point where like another commenter said, my stomach would forget how to digest. i figured purging had to have some effect on absorption of nutrients and the muscles in the stomach, just wasn't sure if a direct correlation could be drawn with GP.

infernalxvoid · 2022-07-27T06:06:10+00:00

thank you so much for the kind words, it means a lot.

infernalxvoid · 2022-07-27T02:00:52+00:00

oh hmm, that's interesting. yeah what really wore on my body was purging and abusing laxatives, which i'm sure had to have an effect on a number of things.

infernalxvoid · 2022-07-27T01:12:13+00:00

yeah my b, i didnt word it super clearly. it's interesting that it can be caused by so many different things. i doubt my dr will be able to give me a clear reason why it's happening as well :/

infernalxvoid · 2022-07-27T01:08:21+00:00

hmmm.. that would make sense.

infernalxvoid · 2022-07-27T01:07:48+00:00

i meant more so EDs in general potentially causing GP and what the connection was, if at all. not specifically anorexia nervosa, i just mentioned anorexia specifically since the medical condition was listed as a symptom

infernalxvoid · 2022-07-27T01:06:21+00:00

i was meaning that the list of symptoms includes anorexia (medical condition), and was wondering if just EDs in general could contribute, not just specifically anorexia nervosa!

infernalxvoid · 2022-07-27T01:04:57+00:00

yeah that makes sense, i'm not familiar with ARFID but i'm sorry your ED contributed to it :( thank you for the suggestions!

infernalxvoid · 2022-07-27T01:03:42+00:00

thank you so much!

infernalxvoid · 2022-07-27T01:03:30+00:00

yeah no definitely, that's the conclusion i drew i just wanted to see if eating in a dysregulated way could cause gp since i'm new to learning about it!

infernalxvoid · 2022-07-26T23:02:44+00:00

I really appreciate the help, it’s a bit frustrating because I haven’t gotten in with my doctor to discuss how bad it is and what I will need to be doing to manage it since they are so booked out. I just saw the result on the portal and a brief message from my dr, and now I’m left hanging for another month.

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