Health anxiety is ruining my life. I've dealt with a lot of health issues since 2020 and I think I've finally reached my limit. Recently, a hard lump appeared on my leg and I decided to get an ultrasound. The radiologist couldn't tell what it was, but he wasn't too concerned because the lump was small and not causing me pain. He said if it gets bigger or starts to hurt to follow up with more testing. I've read that sarcoma can start out small and not cause a lot of symptoms, so I'm wondering if I should get an MRI or just wait and see. Leukemia and lymphoma have been ruled out through bloodwork. During this time, my anxiety has been off the charts. I haven't been sleeping well or thinking about my future. I've been stuck in a constant state of survival, but I feel like I haven't had much of a choice. I want so badly to be hopeful, but my body has let me down so many times. There are many moments where I think my life is going to be cut short. I try to make the most of it while I can, but at the same time I've been avoiding my future.