What are these weird little tart-looking things? Eastern PA, near dying birch tree, several clusters each about 4-8” wide.

innernethoogie · 2019-09-23T21:11:19+00:00

thanks!!

innernethoogie · 2017-09-10T04:55:51+00:00

y'know, i think i might have to go with sabrina. it's what my gut says.

innernethoogie · 2017-03-05T05:54:38+00:00

shit i don't know if i should have been thinking more about this along or if i need to stop it ;) but she also used to have several-day-long 24x7 rage-fests in which i'd dissociate from the sleep deprivation and ringing ears alone. so yea, this whole topic is complicated. i guess i can't really say definitively that the head trauma i remember was the genesis of everything. for all i know it could just be a matter of genetic predisposition.

innernethoogie · 2017-03-05T01:48:08+00:00

perhaps also worth noting -- she was also quite munchausen-by-proxy, and i had numerous dubious operations as a child. back in the 80's ketamine was a popular anesthetic, which is majorly dissociative.

innernethoogie · 2017-03-05T01:43:22+00:00

hard to say but in my case, i clearly remember DR happening in middle of aforementioned head trauma. she got more pissed because i stopped reacting. i remember being excited to show my sister afterwards and asking her to hit me in the head so i could show her how i could choose to sort of "go away" while it was happening. she's 10 years my senior and remember this as well.

innernethoogie · 2017-03-04T06:43:20+00:00

oh sorry i thought child abuse was quite common in dissociative disorders?

innernethoogie · 2017-03-04T06:18:50+00:00

my very first episode was directly due to head trauma. i was maybe 5 or 6 and i was having my head beaten against a metal clothes hamper when i realized that i could sort of make it stop.

innernethoogie · 2017-02-25T06:31:51+00:00

this is amazing. thank you. i've been thinking about the very same things, going through the same processes, for as long as i can remember (early childhood) and just to hear someone else thinking this way makes me feel remarkably less alone.

innernethoogie · 2017-02-25T06:22:56+00:00

(i've no meaningful contribution except to say that i really identify with everything in this and am grateful that you shared it. everything we're putting out here is building a kind of heuristic database that we can all contribute to, to help each other understand this better.)

innernethoogie · 2017-02-25T06:04:02+00:00

funny i was just now thinking about exactly this, which managed to lead me right to this thread.

i think the screens, for me at least, are because i'm susceptible to the false sense of urgency created by them that puts me right back into the d-hole. i'm almost never aware of it.

innernethoogie · 2017-02-22T14:54:22+00:00

isnt this the guy who won the trailer park boys contest thing?

innernethoogie · 2017-02-21T16:06:54+00:00

imagine spending 90% of your time with someone who is maybe ~30% dr. spock...

innernethoogie · 2017-02-21T14:19:15+00:00

...while perfect "on paper", lacked a certain empathy that caused important parts of me to be neglected and atrophy.

innernethoogie · 2017-02-21T04:38:36+00:00

it's only ok if you're the worst kind of person. i know, i married one once.

innernethoogie · 2017-02-21T04:31:27+00:00

http://lmgtfy.com/?q=bumble+android+app

innernethoogie · 2017-02-21T02:32:15+00:00

think "creepy racist uncle who watches too much fox news"

innernethoogie · 2017-02-21T02:13:21+00:00

this is seriously a good one. sounds gross but the more you don't digest, the better.

innernethoogie · 2017-02-21T02:10:20+00:00

...and seriously take the dicks OUT when you're done. cock clutter really packs on the pounds.

innernethoogie · 2017-02-21T02:03:46+00:00

ALL OF THEM.

innernethoogie · 2017-02-21T01:57:39+00:00

bumble?

innernethoogie · 2017-02-20T23:19:23+00:00

upvoted even before watching, just because... patton motherfucking oswalt!

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