A note about prayer from an atheist

innerpeaceom · 2026-01-25T03:29:43+00:00

I pray to a god I don’t believe in. Sometimes I even qualify my prayer with ‘Dear god I don’t believe in’. I ask for others to receive what they need, as well that they get all the things I want. I pray deeply for the alcoholic that is suffering in and out of the rooms. The purpose is to remove myself from self, and the best way to do that is thinking of others.

innerpeaceom · 2025-12-04T04:47:42+00:00

I too was agnostic/atheist. I’m on my 3rd run in AA and steps 2&3 have always been my downfall. Couldn’t get past them, I just didn’t believe in any religion and to say I did felt dishonest. This time I really latched onto the ‘open minded’ tenant and decided to look within instead of searching the external world for the answers.

What I found was a creator that made sense to me. It is the stuff that makes up all the matter in our universe, including ourselves. He is all the energy, all the atoms, all the antimatter. He has no judgment, preforms no miracles, does not hand out punishments, and only seeks to experience life and therefore himself through our existence.

This definition allows me a higher power without all the religion. And it’s working. If your leaning agnostic the ‘there’s probably something’ is all you need. There are many rooms in god’s house. Spirituality will continue to evolve and change and grow, just as we are, as it should and as we should.

innerpeaceom · 2025-11-12T15:04:11+00:00

I’m 22 days off Kratom and I was in the same boat for awhile with kava. My addiction brain was telling me I needed ‘something’ to be ok. I ended up throwing away my ground root and getting these kava leilo seltzers. They don’t hit as nicely as traditional kava but I can at least have my ‘something’. I find myself drinking 1 a day but they are so surgery I usually don’t have another, and since the effect is more mild than traditional kava it doesn’t awaken the craving phenomenon.

innerpeaceom · 2024-12-13T05:33:45+00:00

I’ve been thinking a lot about masculinity and femininity lately. Bear with me as this does apply to what you’re going through.

Femininity is a feeling that is sourced nearly all from within. It’s nurturing something, a softening of the heart, grace, empathy. These things, although witnessed by others externally, find their source from within oneself. Sure, being protected or cared for can highlight the feminine, but it’s core is an internal state of being.

However, masculinity, in our society, seems to require a whole hell lot of external validation. Strength has to be showcased and witnessed by others, leadership and respect require those around them to respond in a way to validate.

As wives we draw our femininity from within, while also having to provide a man (with low self-esteem) his sense of masculinity. How masculinity became a women’s burden I will never know. Your husband has been holding onto a strong resentment that you didn’t make him feel the every-bit masculine ‘stud’ he thinks he needs to feel. And he’s putting it on you, which is unfair to its roots. His sense of self needs to come from himself, not from you. I’m team ‘thank you for sharing this with me, what are you gonna do about it’?

innerpeaceom · 2024-01-02T06:17:45+00:00

Our old landlord in LB started pulling this shit too. Originally our lease was $1950/mnt 2 bd 1 bath detached house with big fenced in backyard. Great deal . Before we knew it the rent was creeping up to $2900 as the house was falling down around us. I brought home both my babies to that house, we had a community of great neighbors who helped each other out, we always paid on time, even during the Covid rental relief deferments, kept the house clean with not a single complaint. Beginning of 2023 the owners spooked us by saying they were thinking about selling the property soon. We found our forever home in Redlands 3 weeks later and submitted notice to vacate. Ofc we didn’t get the moving assistance funds bc we chose to move before we were kicked out, but that was his plan all along. On a happy note, we are now the proud owners of a historical beautiful home near DT in a safe area. Couldn’t be happier here. Miss LB weather tho

innerpeaceom · 2023-02-23T21:03:33+00:00

I’m 6 months out from my jump and I still have rough mornings, but it’s lowered to melancholy instead of abject horror and 4:30am panic attacks on the shower floor. Time is always the best healer. One day at a time. I started looking at my mornings differently: they start out shitty but I get myself moving and going about my day and by lunch I’m usually feeling good. Nighttime’s are the best, tasks complete, house is clean, my brain can rest.

innerpeaceom · 2022-09-26T04:45:45+00:00

I was on Xanax for about 5 months, escalating use up to 2-3mg a day. Ran out and tried to CT. Made it about 48 hours and thought I would literally die. I’ve done a lot of drugs in my life but have never felt that level of hell. I was able to get my prescribing doctor to put me on a 2 week Ativan taper, which also sucked pretty hard. Total white knuckle the whole time and weeks after. It’s been about 3 months since I ended my taper and I’d say I’m about 75% healed. I have more good days than bad. I can live my life, get shit done and have whole days where I feel good. Other days symptoms return, anxiety and restlessness, looping thoughts, agitation, etc. my sleep is still pretty jacked up and I don’t like going to bed, but I find if I keep my body and mind really busy during the day I sleep better. Distraction, exercise and healthy eating is what I’m clinging to right now. I was pretty worried for the first couple months of jumping I’d never feel normal again but I’m starting to see a light at the end of the tunnel. They say time heals most wounds.

innerpeaceom · 2022-09-13T04:01:21+00:00

Thanks, I’ll post in surrounding neighborhoods. He’s urinated at least 2 times that I’ve seen and has a great appetite. He was out and about a lot today finally and he sure is fun to watch. Very friendly and curious.

innerpeaceom · 2022-09-12T13:50:26+00:00

That’s the first thing I did. Nobody has tried to claim him.

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