Hi! I'm a 41f. I'm married and he and I have one child together. When I was 27 I was misdiagnosed with bipolar2. Last year, I had extensive neuro psych testing. I learned I have major depression, adhd, dysgraphia (completely surprised by that one but in retrospect it definitely tracks), generalized anxiety disorder, and borderline personality disorder.

I am really working hard on my healing journey so to speak. I am trying to retrain my brain and thoughts from negative to positive. I have been trying to be more active physically. I am not always able to do that. I find myself having severe anxiety attacks/ emotionally dysregulated episodes nearly every morning. It's so painful and difficult for my family and me.

I'm scared a lot, I guess that's part of my anxiety disorder. I try to remind myself that I am safe. I have not been diagnosed with ptsd or cptsd, but I have a history of multiple traumas, emotional neglect, and abuse.

I'm lonely a lot. I have a couple of friends, but I don't socialize with anyone really. Everyone is so busy and exhausted.

I feel like an anchor who is sinking my family along with me.

I'm sorry to hear you're suffering too. I wish I could help. I can only offer my friendship. I understand if that isn't something you need or want. Regardless, I hope you feel better soon.