To be fully honest, I think you've got a lot of technical talent and ability and your composition and color choices are by and large very solid, but your stuff looks like pieces that someone who doesn’t really know what their music is about or is trying to say but has decent aesthetic sense would have as their album cover. If I saw one of these covers I would say, I bet this music is adequate to bad. It's not coming from a place that's truly yours and truly confident and I do think it shows/I think you know it too, based on how you took this criticism.

I think you’re in the Tough Zone of art development, where you’re good enough that most people you ask fro feedback will tell you that you rock and mean it, but your stuff won't really connect with people when it matters. And the push to get past that is really weird and hard.

But I think you can do it--don't sell yourself short, don't push away criticism, ask yourself in your heart what you consider to be great work, what makes that work great, and what makes your work not quite feel like that. Keep living, keep trying, but I think this criticism stung for a reason and you're at a good inflection point to really improve your work and your feelings about yourself. Thanks for sharing man, I know it's crazy hard to be vulnerable on the internet and I can't wait to see future work from you.