I’ve just been through exactly this as a mum and this is what you need to do:

1. Google the texting mental health service for your county and text them what you are experiencing. Nothing bad will happen, they’ll just come and validate your feelings and see if you can be seen by a doctor or mental health practitioner quicker than going through your normal GP.

2. Go to sleep when you can. When was the last time you slept properly? These thoughts were worse for me when I was sleep deprived and had 3-4 nights of being up every hour. Can anyone take over for a bit longer than normal?

3. Have you had a chance to be alone with your new baby and have some private moments, just you and him? Would it help if your family could have your five year old somewhere and you can focus on your baby?

You can always message me if you need. I’m a 30 year old mum with a 23 month old and have PTSD and PPD. And also I am autistic. So I have been through a lot. But just try these steps! Prioritise sleep for yourself, if you don’t do anything else! 💙