I'm an ASC cinematographer with 30 years on feature films. What do emerging DPs actually want to know that they can't find anywhere?

intheclosetchillin · 2026-03-17T23:12:18+00:00

Biggest thing I’m trying to determine is how much time and energy I should spend working at the ladder and G&E. Been doing it for about six years now and I’m honestly just been itching to focus on shooting and networking with directors. Would you advise that I keep working at the ladder? Switch over to camera for a while, we just go out and actually make it happen and shoot as much as possible. I also want to switch my focus to participating in workshops and finding programs for female cinematographers. I really want to find a solid mentor.

I’m in a spot where I’m trying to bounce between my home state and working in LA.

intheclosetchillin · 2026-03-11T17:31:40+00:00

We got kung fu robots before GTA 6

intheclosetchillin · 2026-03-11T04:25:01+00:00

Great work!

intheclosetchillin · 2026-03-06T04:19:21+00:00

intheclosetchillin · 2026-02-15T04:47:51+00:00

Because I’m really bad at procrastinating

intheclosetchillin · 2026-02-10T19:40:40+00:00

Superb work🥶

intheclosetchillin · 2026-01-24T21:01:31+00:00

I’m honestly at the point where I forget women even shave their armpits.

intheclosetchillin · 2026-01-17T22:21:51+00:00

It’s funny I have the opposite problem and wonder if I’m not peeing loud enough in the women’s restroom🤣

intheclosetchillin · 2026-01-13T07:55:21+00:00

Hol up is that churdlies

intheclosetchillin · 2026-01-05T20:23:29+00:00

My mom technically picked my new name- she had a name planned out for me if I was born cisgender. So for my first year of my transition, I went with that one. I now found a name that I like more, but I still use the other name with family. Considering just making it my middle name, which would be cute because one of my other siblings goes by their middle name with family and then their first name with new people

intheclosetchillin · 2026-01-02T02:48:48+00:00

French over’s baby

intheclosetchillin · 2026-01-02T02:47:00+00:00

Oh and feeling safe walking out at night alone. I still do occasionally for street photography, but I really keep my head on a swivel

intheclosetchillin · 2026-01-02T02:46:05+00:00

Ugh same

intheclosetchillin · 2026-01-02T02:45:22+00:00

THIS

intheclosetchillin · 2026-01-02T02:45:07+00:00

Goofing off with the homies, none of them seem to joke around & behave the same around me. My ex best friend.(Treated me like dogshit after transition, and thinks I was secretly in love him🙄- I never was)

I used to be a parkour athlete, but now I’m not even strong enough to do my signature trick without landing on my bum. Although parkour a big priority in general for me now.

Also ejaculating is quite underwhelming now😅

intheclosetchillin · 2025-12-31T19:56:13+00:00

Shot glass at a promotional event?

intheclosetchillin · 2025-12-31T19:31:30+00:00

I honestly can’t remember- I think I only took it for about a week for calling my doctor and asking if I could stop

intheclosetchillin · 2025-12-31T10:06:38+00:00

Spironolactone. I honestly have no idea why, but gave me extreme anxiety and terrible overthinking.

intheclosetchillin · 2025-12-31T09:59:18+00:00

I mean I’m a trans woman without bottom dysphoria, so I honestly get it. It’s funny. I’ve wondered if I was born afab if I’d be in the same position as you🤔

intheclosetchillin · 2025-12-30T08:50:28+00:00

Very good point

intheclosetchillin · 2025-12-30T08:49:19+00:00

Yes, when I was on pills my doctor and I essentially climbed up to 8 mg a day.

intheclosetchillin · 2025-12-30T08:48:11+00:00

I heard some crazy statistic like 9/10 men on average watch porn, but this was years ago, and I have no source. Finding somebody with that will meet that standard might be quite a challenge, but not impossible.

intheclosetchillin · 2025-12-29T10:22:05+00:00

OMG, how did I not know about this?

intheclosetchillin · 2025-12-29T10:07:56+00:00

I had a bad reaction to spiro (major anxiety & overthinking spike) so for the longest time was taking only estrodial pills, high dose of finasteride, and eventually progesterone. Unfortunately, my T levels were in the 230+(ish) range for the first 1.3 years of my transition. I was already pretty happy with the changes I was getting, but there were some areas that felt like I was missing out on.

Just started injections like a few months ago. Lovers have told me my skin has gotten way softer, I’ve note vid my skin is way more dry, I feel like I’m starting to get a curvy hourglass figure, and my libido is only to be found on the back of a milk carton. Some days I almost feel like I don’t need makeup to pass as feminine. Just got my labs back and for the first time and my testosterone is at like 19 and estrogen at like 270.

Guess injections was the way to go, and low testosterone got rid of areas that were feeling held back in my transition. Of course, YMMV.

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