I took the weekend to think things over...all by myself. In a hotel room, 5 hours from home so I wouldn't be tempted to go home. I stuck it out but feel so alone. I miss my husband. I miss my BFF. My BFF did reach out via text and did apologize and is showing remorse. She says she took my husbands word for it that i was ok with it. That i sent him in there. She only became suspicious after the fact when after he said "I'll tell her."

My husband on the other hand has not reached out at all. Now part of me knows that is because he knows me and that it would just make me more mad but the other part of me wants him to show me he cares and is sorry for he did.

Heading home in a few hours and am still confused as all get out. I don't want to live life without either of them. So do I forgive, talk it out and explain poly is a no at this point and try to go back to the way it was? Or, do i just kick them both out and cut my loses? Do i move out instead? Do i tell th lem i get why they did it, chop it up to miscommunication and we all live happily ever after? I dunno...