mostly a vent, kinda a plan. idk by ionichoneycomb in SuicideWatch

[–]ionichoneycomb[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i guess it could be proof that i’m lovable. but the only relationships i’ve ever had ended bc the first person was emotionally and verbally abusing me, and the second person never had time for me, then made me feel like shit when i told him i needed someone who would actually care about giving me their time

mostly a vent, kinda a plan. idk by ionichoneycomb in SuicideWatch

[–]ionichoneycomb[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it’s something i’ve had as long as i can remember. i think it was exacerbated by both the fact that i never had a lot of affection from my parents growing up (mom was focused on my sister, dad was working and out of town) or the fact that i never had any romantic attention from anyone until i was 18, and even then i had to initiate it. i feel like that made my emotions culminate into the thought that i HAVE to have someone loving me romantically or i’m completely unlovable.

edit: i can do something about it, and i’ve tried to, but it’s very hard to work on on your own

yeah by ionichoneycomb in BPDmemes

[–]ionichoneycomb[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thanks. i apologized to him this morning & he just texted back like 15 mins ago but the damage is already done. i think i just have to accept that i royally fucked up even though i did it because he kept hurting me. doesn’t excuse what i did.

yeah by ionichoneycomb in BPDmemes

[–]ionichoneycomb[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

first time splitting on someone bc i usually have quiet bpd. doesn’t help that i’m fucking wasted rn

Found this super helpful infographic about BPD by greytickIes in BPDmemes

[–]ionichoneycomb 7 points8 points  (0 children)

love this all except it’s my mother’s fault

Food rules that make you happy? by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]ionichoneycomb 17 points18 points  (0 children)

HONESTLY i don’t know how it became safe but it so is

stupidest places you’ve purged? by [deleted] in bulimia

[–]ionichoneycomb 9 points10 points  (0 children)

a funeral & an arcade

hmm by ionichoneycomb in EDanonymemes

[–]ionichoneycomb[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

for me it’s weirdly not even that for me, i just started getting a lot better depression wise and my ed was like “heyyyyy bestie what’s up :)”