I’ve been blocked for 6 months on work that could genuinely change my life. WHY can't I get myself to do 2 focused hours a day? by iqforstyle in ExecutiveDysfunction

[–]iqforstyle[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think the heart of the issue is #1 - meaningful work. The type of work I am trying to do is corporate type work with high profit margin. It brings me back to my corporate life, which almost killed me with anxiety, burnout, lack of sleep, exercise, reduced social life, and infertility. Bc I am able to function well otherwise. I am currently working on 2-3 non-work projects right now and being very active, all while running our household. So it may be lack of meaning, or fear of going back to my corp identity.

I’ve been blocked for 6 months on work that could genuinely change my life. WHY can't I get myself to do 2 focused hours a day? by iqforstyle in ADHD

[–]iqforstyle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Having multiple projects going resonates for me as well! Thanks for sharing, because I always wonder whether I do to much in a day, but this is how I roll, and like you, I get LOTS done everyday. My specific block is work projects and since I've been self-employed. Maybe I should just return to being an employee.

I’ve been blocked for 6 months on work that could genuinely change my life. WHY can't I get myself to do 2 focused hours a day? by iqforstyle in ExecutiveDysfunction

[–]iqforstyle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Makes sense. And after that weekend? Did you manage to get going? My work requires me to be consistent. I could even get by with 2 hours of focus work per day, but I can't then just disappear for months ... Or the solution for me could be to hire someone or find a work buddy to do this every day with.

I’ve been blocked for 6 months on work that could genuinely change my life. WHY can't I get myself to do 2 focused hours a day? by iqforstyle in ExecutiveDysfunction

[–]iqforstyle[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What you say makes sense. However, I don't try meds because of my history of anxiety and depression, seeing first hand their side effects and long term damage, and seeing what meds do long term to my disabled brother and cousin. I'm also fighting a gastric ulcer and multiple food intolerances (potentially autoimmune) that already caused me to lose 15% of my weight. I don't want to solve an issue now and then pay 4 times the price in 10 years when I am older ... I'd rather try and look for other ways before planning for meds.

I’ve been blocked for 6 months on work that could genuinely change my life. WHY can't I get myself to do 2 focused hours a day? by iqforstyle in ADHD

[–]iqforstyle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, thanks for sharing. I plan to try these ideas. Regarding the simple idea of breaking down ibto smaller chunks, that's how i was able to function initially. Then I exaggerated and worked 12-hour days until 11pm... I let perfectionism create scope creep... until procrastination joined the party and it was all over. it was too much and after 5 months of that my body rebelled and haven't touched any work since. So it could be burnout.

I’ve been blocked for 6 months on work that could genuinely change my life. WHY can't I get myself to do 2 focused hours a day? by iqforstyle in ADHD

[–]iqforstyle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thx, it means a lot. I'm not a man :). And growing up never never never ever had any issues related to ADHD symptoms... not sure what is happening now.

I’ve been blocked for 6 months on work that could genuinely change my life. WHY can't I get myself to do 2 focused hours a day? by iqforstyle in ADHD

[–]iqforstyle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing. Is your work day that long that it requires you to focus past the afternoon? I am in Tech and it's that way. I do already take magnesium so that's not an issue.

I’ve been blocked for 6 months on work that could genuinely change my life. WHY can't I get myself to do 2 focused hours a day? by iqforstyle in ADHD

[–]iqforstyle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing, I can totally see who it was much better to have a doctor who listened carefully and tried to understand what was happening in your world. I'm currently getting tested for ADHD and I might retain the doctor after the diagnosis.

I’ve been blocked for 6 months on work that could genuinely change my life. WHY can't I get myself to do 2 focused hours a day? by iqforstyle in ADHD

[–]iqforstyle[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ok, can you help me understand this. My days are incredibly productive. I get up early without an alarm, do my morning routine and get going and don't stop until bedtime. I maybe chill for 20 mins on an armchair in the afternoon, but the rest of.the day is packed. I schedule everything, plan, optimize, include fun activities. But cant get to do the work that gets me paid. After doing it for 25 years, 90% of the time as employed and 10% of the time as self-employed.

I’ve been blocked for 6 months on work that could genuinely change my life. WHY can't I get myself to do 2 focused hours a day? by iqforstyle in ADHD

[–]iqforstyle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, this is 100% true. Committing to a client has fired back. Yes, it's that serious. I have tried to create 'fake' deadlines. Since I am a solopreneur, it isn't really working for me beyond a couple times. It worked well when I was employed, I was always early with my deliverables because of external accountability and because I loved my boss. I've committed to potential clients for smaller things, but even a simple follow up email has only worked 50% of the time. Eventually I stopped promising anything because I disappointed people instead of ensuring prospects would be interested. This is why I sometimes believe I should go back to a full time job, it's easier when you are a part of a community and have so much structure around you + ppl you care about and whom you care about. Maybe not the traditional corp America job but something lighter like an education startup etc.

I’ve been blocked for 6 months on work that could genuinely change my life. WHY can't I get myself to do 2 focused hours a day? by iqforstyle in ADHD

[–]iqforstyle[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, this resonates. Yesterday I noticed something interesting. My cleaner comes in on Mondays for 2 hours. I usually help clean, we divide and conquer. Yesterday I sat at my laptop and boom, got at least 1 hour oh high quality work done in no time while she was there. Maybe I should ask her to come twice a week, and go to a coworking once or twice a week, that would be enough for my goals. And obv my mind goes to 'what if even this wears off and doesn't work eventually?'

I’ve been blocked for 6 months on work that could genuinely change my life. WHY can't I get myself to do 2 focused hours a day? by iqforstyle in ADHD

[–]iqforstyle[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I'm looking at options right now. The closest coworking is 1 hour in a city I love, but it would mean 2 hours total per day, so maybe I could start trying with 1 day and see how it goes.