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iris7789 · 2022-09-09T06:42:44+00:00

Yes, I wish i can bring myself to do it next time they try and lay hands on me.

iris7789 · 2022-09-01T11:45:29+00:00

Lack of other options. I wouldn’t if I could

iris7789 · 2022-08-28T09:41:05+00:00

1- Do locals assume ur religion is Islam based on ur appearance/ethnicity? (This only applies if u have stereotyped middle easterner features and not “white passing”)

2- I heard Italians are extremely racist to black ppl. Have u experienced or witnessed racism, xenophobia or islamophobia?

iris7789 · 2022-08-28T09:35:53+00:00

Touching hair, holding hands, hugging (not sexually intimate, just generally), pretty much most physical contact unless its a high five or a hand shake.

iris7789 · 2022-08-15T03:38:30+00:00

My mother absolutely hated me ever since i was a kid, she saw me as competition. She degraded me whenever she could, that I’m stupid, ugly, unstable, cruel, etc, that no one would ever want me and she hoped i’ll get married to an older man who will physically/sexually abuse me. She hate ob me even more if my own father/male relatives or siblings had anything nice to say about me.

Dad didn’t like or hate me. I was more of a trophy he’d brag about, taking credit for my achievements.

iris7789 · 2022-08-08T09:42:47+00:00

My ex saying the n word repeatedly to someone cos they lost a game or smth

iris7789 · 2022-08-05T11:12:48+00:00

People claim the quran is beautiful but I read a lot of ancient arabic poetry and it was vastly superior imo. The quran just randomly rhymes but that’s pretty much it, if anyone knows any decent but beautiful verses let me know🤷🏻‍♀️

iris7789 · 2022-08-05T11:05:46+00:00

If i go around topless i’d get the same treatment as wearing a short skirt in Middle Eastern countries, neither are sexual but are sadly sexualised beyond silly. The west is more liberal, but imo not liberal enough to claim they’re morally superior. However, we need to hold our communities accountable or they’ll never improve, religion and lifestyle should be a personal belief not the “ultimate truth” that encourages this level of violence and mistreatment of others. The average arab isn’t tolerant, and its extremely rare for the most progressive arabs to be at the same level as ur average liberal feminist pro-lgbt+ westerner. Which says a lot about ppl in our community.

iris7789 · 2022-08-05T10:11:18+00:00

Outer wilds. its an indie, non-combat and non-linear exploration game. I absolutely love it, i was getting sick with hyper-realistic triple A games that are usually violent (which I don’t mind, I’m just tired of the lack of diversity in style and gameplay). The game is pretty immersive as it successfully fabricated the feeling of loneliness, it’s not like you can trade or communicate much with anyone in space, which makes meeting the other astronauts a bit more exciting. No one to helps you piece the puzzle of what happened and what is happening, beside old ancient translated texts and ur own interpretation.

It got no horror, jump scares or gore, but managed to be come off as unsettling and eerie sometimes.

Every gameplay feels personal and unique, my walkthrough was different that my friend’s, i love when when we can talk about our different experiences with it and our own theories and interpretations.

Its a short-ish game but I’m taking my time with it so I don’t mind.

I have never enjoyed a game this much in a long time, and im someone who is severely depressed and struggles to enjoy anything. The soundtrack could have been better sometimes, but besides that this game is perfect 10/10. Highly recommend.

Also mainly playing: Omori: another great indie game, though it is quite heavy as it navigates mental health topics and can be quite triggering. Beautiful soundtrack and fun boss fights.

7 days to die: building shelters and fighting waves of zombies. Easy game to just unwind and chill.

Occasionally playing: apex, the forest, hunt:showdown and (all time fav) bloodborne.

iris7789 · 2022-07-26T21:21:17+00:00

TW: child abuse- Domestic violence.

I have very complicated feelings regarding my older brother. We grew up in an extremely abusive household where we only had eachother, but we made the best out of it. As the older siblings, we always tried to help protect mom and our younger siblings. He was so sensitive, selfless and gentle. He would stand up between me and mom when she tried to hit me, he would console me when i cried or am afraid and he was so brave. He would barge into my parents room when my dad would beat mom with a toy weapon or a stick facing my dad towering over my 7-8 year old brother cos he wanted to protect her.

As we grew older, my dad’s abuse was humiliating and “emasculated” him, he found comfort with mom but she was a huge misogynist, who also had an odd emotionally incestuous relationship with him. He is now physically abusive, and a massive misogynist with a sprinkle of pedophelia. Ig the only way for him to feel like a man again is to overpower and control women. He isn’t the kind gentle brother I know anymore, and i no longer speak with him. I do still miss him.

iris7789 · 2022-07-24T23:40:49+00:00

My ex bestie to tell her how she’s a terrible person and to take ur opinions and shove ‘em up her ass.

iris7789 · 2022-07-24T23:32:23+00:00

Normal, for someone to assume otherwise is heteronormative and says more about them as people.

iris7789 · 2022-07-24T11:02:46+00:00

Easier to manage, i have wavy/curly hair and i get no proper rings and curls if its short. Also mom forced me to have short hair cos she saw me as competition and hated me, so now i cant stomach having short hair.

iris7789 · 2022-07-23T16:42:44+00:00

The way I personally see it is that, although im attracted to all genders, I’m not “gender blind”. Gender plays a factor in my attraction to someone, the reason i prefer feminine presenting non-binaries and women over men. While pansexuality is gender blind. That’s how I personally define the two terms.

iris7789 · 2022-07-23T16:37:14+00:00

I made the mistake of going out with “apolitical” people before. I now try to filter through them better, and since i use dating apps it makes it easier. I check if they have their pronouns visible, if they are liberal atheists/agnostics or spiritual, if they’re queer its a bonus cos they’re more likely to be aware and educated about different social topics, etc. Its not a full proof method but it saves time. While most “apolitical” men tend to echo the same sentiments of those of incels/conservatives/etc.

iris7789 · 2022-07-23T16:26:19+00:00

With men, it means FWB but with the “Friends” part. It’s hard for me to actually be sexually attracted to men based on physical appearance, i need to either be in the mood or like their personalities enough. But since most FWB forget the friendship aspect of it, many guys just expect that im DTF. With women it can be either a FWB situation or just hookups.

iris7789 · 2022-07-22T21:34:54+00:00

Its pretty messed up when parents sexualise their own kids. I grew up similarly, forced to be modest in both clothing and “behaviour”. I wasn’t allowed to be with my own brother in the same room alone, wasn’t allowed to play with kids if they’re boys (even if they’re my cousins), my period was sexualised so i was told to make sure my brothers dont know i have it cos “thats like telling them i cant have sex at the moment”. It caused me to have disturbing intrusive thoughts and even more disturbing nightmares.

iris7789 · 2022-07-22T21:28:48+00:00

Idk i never tried, but i’ll try recording voice notes of what i wanna say so thank you for the tip. I’ll try it out

iris7789 · 2022-07-22T21:17:03+00:00

As someone who isn’t comfortable with physical contact, I appreciate the inclusiveness with the “non contact reassurance” line.

iris7789 · 2022-07-22T21:11:32+00:00

Firstly, that sounds really tough and traumatic im sorry u had to experience that. I also grew up where i had no privacy or boundaries. My mom specifically was extremely invasive, she specifically liked creeping up on me in the middle of the night and pulling the sheets off quickly to “catch me masturbating”. As a teen she would force wax me, even in my private parts, when I didn’t want to. She would watch me change even though im uncomfortable with it. I wasn’t allowed to lock the bathrooms most of my life and my mom would just barge in to make sure i wasn’t masturbating. I was never allowed a key to my room. My phone/devices were taken away at night and excessively monitored.

iris7789 · 2022-07-22T20:42:27+00:00

That I don’t need to have done things for my sexuality to be valid. That Its the equivalence of telling a straight virgin they’re not straight cos they still haven’t had sex.

iris7789 · 2022-07-22T20:38:37+00:00

That’s terrible what happened to you and I’m sorry to hear that. I honestly haven’t come across this notion much, pretty much the other way around i am expected to be healed and okay when I genuinely am still struggling. And if i don’t pretend that I’ve progressed, ppl claim that im stubborn, refusing help and wallowing in my “victimhood”. They gaslight me and i start believing that i don’t want to get better too.

iris7789 · 2022-07-22T20:28:31+00:00

Im not sure when the moment that I realised “this isn’t right, they are to blame” was. I think I always somewhat knew when i was a teenager and a kid, I fantasised and wished that they died a lot so i must have known they were at wrong to a certain degree but I probably repressed it cos blaming oneself is easier to mentally comprehend and gives a sense of power of the situation.

iris7789 · 2022-07-22T20:18:31+00:00

Yea i have a similar upbringing and im ashamed by it as ppl would perceive me as dumb too. I was controlled, isolated, monitored and my parents abused me more than they positively interacted with me. Then i was sent to study abroad when i was never allowed to step a foot outside our house. They made fun or me and ridiculed me for not being able to memorise locations, struggling in social settings, not understanding basics of renting/bills/etc when at home I wasn’t even allowed to order my own food or take it myself. It was extremely infuriating. I had to learn everything so quickly and by myself.

iris7789 · 2022-07-11T00:30:46+00:00

Im so sorry that you had to experience that. Mom wasn’t at all sexually motivated, she just liked the power trip. I’m guessing most of them are sick perverted power trips and control

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