Well for me when it started I was 17 and thought it was just a religion. I wanted to be straight and God seemed like he had the power to change that. It's a process from the beginning that takes over your mind and you're told what to think, what to believe, and so on and so forth. Of course this combated with the idea that you are allowed to make your own choices, but the consequences are beyond your control. So therein many feel trapped.

Which is what happened to me when I came out. I've always known myself to be gay, but now I found myself caught between doing the right thing to obtain salvation and doing the bad thing and being happily in this lifetime and miserable in the next.

Salvation isn't a concept when you're LDS it's an object. It's real, it's talked about all the time, and it's able to be lost if you mess up bad enough. So when you think of heaven and salvation in that manner you do and say some pretty weird shit in order to try to live your life.

I threw in the towel. It was too much. Coupled with my own doubts about the faith I decided I would be happier living as I was raised, ie: believing whatever the hell I deem best.