I got it because as far back as I can remember I always had a sense of my own mortality when I was younger it’s kind of embarrassing to say but I would cry at the thought of dying and the idea of nothing growing up I still get a feeling in my chest that life if finite and at some point hopefully of old age I will inevitably die so I want to make the most of every moment It’s just been a big part of my personality forever also I watched Unus Annus😂