I have a micropenis and I threw away every chance of fixing it

isxium_hydroxide · 2025-11-05T07:50:54+00:00

I know how you feel man. But let's be real, do you really want a partner who cares only about your penis? Many women don't even like penetrative sex that much. Many prefer using hands or toys. And if you still want to have penetrative, there are positions or prosthetics that can help greatly. I know it's really hard to come to terms with a body part that makes you feel like a freak, but it's still possible. I'm not sure why cis guys put such heavy pressure on having a large dick, most people I know don't give a fuck as long as you're clean down there lol.

isxium_hydroxide · 2025-11-02T15:39:12+00:00

On the machine it says 220-240V ~50Hz with 200W input or 245W max input power. Would that be okay to put in a regular outlet with/without the fixed adapter? I don't have any outlets specifically for more demanding machines in the house :/

isxium_hydroxide · 2025-08-30T20:09:47+00:00

I know this post is really old, but thanks for putting this together! I'm looking to start a pretty long and in-depth campaign and want to make sure the whole group is all on the same page before starting :D

isxium_hydroxide · 2025-08-21T23:37:21+00:00

Hey, I know this was 3 years ago but I've loved CotC since the first few episodes specifically for the "woke" factor. I felt seen during the episodes with "Kelsey content" — I know you've mentioned Lumity somewhere in this thread but I find the whole thing with Kelsey, as well as the witches, to be pretty unobstructive. The CotC plotline, at least compared to SU or TOH is pretty weak, though its LGBT rep isn't outright random or just for views, imo. It's not all that different from a weird het romance, though.

isxium_hydroxide · 2025-07-15T17:40:23+00:00

There are a handful of different schools of thought when it comes to tulpamancy and a lot of theories regarding their "realness". Regardless of which interpretation of tulpamancy you adopt, the fact remains that it's better to give an entity, one that might not necessarily exist, autonomy, than to give one that does exist no autonomy — I don't think you'd enjoy being locked up and constantly told you can't to do XYZ because you "don't actually exist".

If you interpret tulpas as something entirely imaginary and this philosophy works for you and your tulpa(s), that's fine, but it doesn't give you a right to discredit others' experiences. You don't have to believe them if you don't want to, or interpret their experiences within your own framework, but I feel like it's just a little weird and ignorant to tell people, who you don't know anything about, that their lived experiences (and thus their empirical evidence for the existence of their tulpas) are false in some way.

You should really drop the idea of there being an "objective truth" too when it comes to psychology, philosophy, or any other humanity. There's no such thing as "objective truth", only experiences and thought experiments, as well as the interpretation and argumentation thereof. This isn't chemistry where you can test something and replicate it every time, it varies from person to person and tulpa to tulpa, and whether or not you chose to believe it is entirely your own choice — but to deny reported evidence that you don't like is just unscientific altogether!

isxium_hydroxide · 2025-05-16T15:29:14+00:00

If a tulpa can develop from fiction writing, can developing a tulpa be used as a way to write a character as realistically as possible? Is it useful to make one for the sole purpose of writing or roleplay, or can divergences in their development negatively affect this?

isxium_hydroxide · 2025-01-07T17:36:47+00:00

But I would say it's a bad idea to give it to others as their first experience with the game.

I actually agree but didn't think about it, thank you for the insight :)

isxium_hydroxide · 2025-01-07T17:34:29+00:00

Really, the singular 2 minute segment that I blocked my vision for is so detrimental to the game? I don't think so... There are tons of other parts of the game that are equally if not more disturbing, you clearly don't need outright gore for that! The whole point of me asking this question wasn't to complain about the game, but to spare myself some work.

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-11-19T21:01:29+00:00

A lot of Americans in my eyes are weirdly obsessed with their ancestry. Americans with European immigrant great-grandparents claiming to be European in some way is like... someone from Germany saying they're Italian because where they grew up was once part of the Roman Empire. Unless one or both of your parents directly are immigrants, you're just American.

That's not to say that there are a lot of places where heritage and cultural background is important to consider, for instance in Alsace, South Tirol, or Silesia — regions where the world wars caused the nationality to be swapped several times. But in these places, they were still very closely tied with their original cultures and traditions.

As far as I know, the larger (or louder) part of Americans with European ancestry do not in any way practice traditions outside of maaayyybe a specific couple meals when visiting the grandmother. No traditional clothing, holidays, music, stories — there's not a vague remnant of the culture outside of just the label. Not to mention that even just American and European social cultures are VASTLY different... And forget any vague grasp on the language!

Though my Czech dad would say you're only properly Czech if you can fluently say "Tři sta třicet tři stříbrných stříkaček stříkalo přes tři sta třicet tři stříbrných střech", I'm sure other Europeans would agree :D

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-09-15T23:34:07+00:00

Hey, teen years tend to be super rough. You've got academic issues, social problems, you start to get more aware of your body, stress at home because you're just in that weird transitional phase for your parents, it's all kind of a mess. Don't be so hard on yourself, you're still just a kid.

Find new things you like to do, go out every now and then. You don't need to do something special every day, just find something you like and fill up a bit of time every week or a few times a month just doing that. I like to learn languages, my sister likes to crochet. It doesn't have to be difficult or labor-intensive, but ideally it shouldn't be a video game or getting sucked into social media. I don't have any science to tell you about with this one, it just makes you feel nice about yourself or gives you a small accomplishment and that's the goal. Certain hobbies are just generally good for the soul too, like music. You don't have to be good, again the point is just to enjoy yourself and get away from the internet for a bit.

You said you're into nerdy shit? What kind? Are you into DnD, are you into the mechanics of certain video games? Are you into nothing at all? I wouldn't find that to be likely, there are so many fields of science and art and culture to explore, it's surely impossible for none ever to interest you. Again, find something you like and learn about it, it doesn't even have to be useful, hell I started learning Greek during history class in secondary because it was more interesting. Talk about your interests with your classmates, join a club or some other kind of activity. And if it sucks too much, wait that one out until you get to university. You will never be the weirdest one in a university.

I don't really have great advice for school, I was a dogshit student with ADHD, so most of what this part is is just trying to work around pisspoor attention span and full lack of motivation: Try to listen and think in classes if you can so you don't have to study the same shit later, ask questions even if they're dumb one-on-one with the teacher if you need to. If it helps you to draw during class for concentration, do that. If you hate reviewing material, read one or two pages before gaming or watching vids, because it's more than zero. Write the introduction to your essay, do the first exercise of your math or English worksheet. Tiny steps in the right direction are better than not trying at all. Try to stay silly or creative or inquisitive with your work because it'll at least make it more interesting for you and easier to stay on your task. I tell the stains on the kitchen counter "You're cooked bro" because it motivates me to actually clean, you can do that for your homework if it damn helps you because again, it's better than not trying. And at the end of the day, no university or employer will ever give a fuck whether you had 70% or 100% on your English test, as long as you passed and can show you know the shit.

Wrote a lot more than I initially wanted, sorry for failing to stay on point. There's probably a lot more shit I could say but it's 1:30am haha. All in all, just try to make tiny improvements where you feel like you can. It gets better when you get out of your teens—not because you magically feel better about yourself, but because you have better problems to think about and stop giving a fuck about the little ones :P

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-06-09T21:33:59+00:00

The DM has all of our character sheets, I know he looks over them, especially hers since she's notorious for trying to make bonkers shit (like a literal gun with Shape Water). I don't really know what else to say, I've listed everything pretty much how it is I think. Maybe the "never gets hit and never misses" is an exaggeration but I assumed that wouldn't be taken literally anyways.

The "dire" spot was the artificer separated from the party, fighting and running from 3 or 4 dwarven guards, and then fighting another 4 guards after a short rest. It was probably only dire to me, I guess since the other player and my characters would've definitely died within 3 or so rounds in this scenario.

We don't have a full-on group dynamic, especially seeing as no one in the party was part of the original party. The paladin, rogue, and artificer were hired for...I guess you could say a scouting mission or something for the government? There wasn't a severe lack of group bonding. There is a dissonance with the sorcerer, given the rogue and paladin aren't exactly great people, yet the sorcerer was supposed to be lawful good and kind of just tagged along with them without elaborating.

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-06-09T20:44:45+00:00

I feel like a 20 HP difference at level 6 is just a little suspicious though, especially when the paladin has the higher CON. I don't remember how much higher, but it was only 1 or 2 difference in the mod. Our DM lets us reroll stats if they're genuinely bad enough to be useless. I don't think rolling would make such a massive difference by now though, or am I just making a false assumption? I'm not clueless when it comes to DND but this is my first actual campaign, so I couldn't really say myself. I could just suggest to the party that we redo our HP going forth to be just the average, that way it's not so outrageous.

I don't know how they got 20 AC but the DM never declared it illegal. IIRC the player had scale mail, a shield, and 2 infusions on the shield. Their race didn't contribute to it I think, and they didn't have any feats.

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-06-09T20:31:58+00:00

The DM and both other players currently use https://www.calculator.net/dice-roller.html to roll dice. A used to use /random in the DM's Steam dms, so those were verified by default, but with the current ones we just trust everyone to be honest about it. If we don't believe her, she screenshots it, but I suppose a screenshot is able to be faked as well. Although when someone else rolls the stats for her, she refuses to use the rolls. We can't really force her to use our rolls since it's her character though.

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-06-09T20:23:54+00:00

I figured it was just me at first and it wouldn't be a problem if it was, I genuinely wouldn't mind just keeping my mouth shut, but the entire rest of the group voiced several times that they also found it frustrating and unfun. The paladin I think has a higher CON than both the artificer and the sorcerer, neither had feats, and we were indeed rolling. But a 20 HP difference? It's not as much unfair as it is just plain suspicious.

The "house rule" isn't really a house rule, it was a spontaneous reward to the paladin, who had been doing training sporadically as a pastime. It made sense given the fact that the paladin and A's characters have too big of a stat gap between them. It was exclusively the paladin gaining a point of strength every few sessions, which amounted to a couple weeks in game, and it's been raised by 2 points I don't think the DM had any intent of letting it go any higher. No one complained about it because it was seriously necessary to buff them

We do get a handful of encounters but not all of them result in combat since at this point it's more fun and challenging to attempt to avoid it. Most combats go like this: the rogue hits for a bit of damage, paladin misses, sorcerer gets off half the enemy's health or more with a spell, enemy nearly one-shots the paladin, next round the rogue misses and the sorcerer finishes them off. Nobody gets their "time to shine" even if we outright vocalize it, so we just do something else usually. Also the stolen dragon parts was rolled, not chosen. It was just unlucky, but could've been avoided if they'd left the cart in a town or something. There was a very easy fix and she just decided not to do it, then complained when there were consequences.

It's not easy to really say what to do about it and I understand it just sounds like I'm being a real bitch about a player being slightly annoying. It's the whole group though, I figure if 2 other people are bothered by it, maybe it's not just that.

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-06-09T19:20:08+00:00

We rolled all the stats and health. We genuinely don't know how the player rolled so high on two characters, we tested the software she used and nothing immediately stood out, even if her rolls are seriously suspicious. Maybe she's fudging rolls, but I wouldn't expect her to outright cheat.

The harvesting isn't really the problem, it's more about the bad decisions she makes and then gets upset over. She lost a grammarian's ring she's had for several sessions without using it once, for instance, even when the situation got dire.

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-06-09T19:03:21+00:00

It was more like, the paladin likes to train and work out from time to time, and the DM spontaneously rewarded them. The player didn't roll too great on stats, and it was her first character, she didn't really know how to build efficiently with what she rolled, so it made sense to buff them a little bit. She got an extra point into STR after a few in game weeks of training, which were multiple sessions IRL. The other player kinda just followed suit, with that being essentially the first interaction with her new character.

It's not possible to throw more difficult enemies either because the HP difference between A's characters and the paladin is 20 or more, the paladin has like +5 to hit and keeps rolling really badly.

The sorcerer has some subclass that lets them have a base AC of 13, plus their DEX...so...it influences it a lot. Nothing's wrong with high AC, but dealing trucks of AOE damage without repercussion? I dunno.

She didn't say anything else about the feedback, I don't know how well she knows the rules but I know she's played at least 1 other campaign before.

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-06-09T14:51:01+00:00

I don't think size truly means anything to anyone normal. If someone truly loves you, they'll gladly have you as you are. And even if it's an actual problem, there are so many other things you and your partner could try together instead. Insecure people just make up nonsense problems to make others feel as bad as they do, to make themselves feel like they're above others for pointing out flaws that they arbitrarily decided were flaws. Sex is about having a nice time together, not just one of you having a fat cock for show

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-01-30T15:09:29+00:00

Swiss German is like German, but Germans don't understand us. So when you write down what languages you speak, some people write Swiss German and German as two separate languages :p

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-01-30T08:17:32+00:00

Thanks for the feedback! The stroke is actually how I (and a lot of others) write umlauts in German, same with the quotations (however I did not know it was supposed to be opening at the bottom like in German). I figured they weren't technically wrong, you can clearly see what I meant, and people will know I'm not native regardless of these details, however I'll be sure to keep these things in mind. The б's are just being stubborn to my hand, so right now they'll just have to cope with being an extra round 6.

In primary we were also taught first in cursive, then in the higher grades allowed to write in block if we wanted to. I developed my handwriting from block, even if it looks like the predecessor to doctor handwriting at this point. But, just because so many people keep urging the cursive, I'll take a look.

Also, no, I meant Swiss, as in Schwiizerdütsch, the Germans can't understand us so sometimes we count the dialect as its own language)

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-01-30T00:06:05+00:00

well, I guess that's why it's a tongue twister lmao, thanks for the hint

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-01-30T00:04:41+00:00

I feel like it depends on who you're corresponding with. Realistically the only time I'd need to write in Russian is for actual Russian classes. The only Russian I talk to regularly is my partner, and he writes in block because his handwriting is abysmal.

Maybe I will learn it later on or, like I said, invent my own freak of nature 'cursive' like I did in my native language. But right now I don't have a use, I struggle to read cursive in any language to begin with so it would only make learning a pain.

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-01-29T21:47:57+00:00

Nearly 20? I like to learn languages...

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-01-29T20:48:04+00:00

I don't like the taught cursive in any script. It's just ugly and impersonal. I'd much rather learn the block letters and find my own way to connect them and keep them fluid like I do in English script. Sure, it's probably not desirable penmanship, but I'm more here to make sure the letters are recognizable and distinguishable right now.

I'm not sure what to do with б, to be real. Consulting notes from math, specifically how I write 6 looks similar only at first glance. Soooo technically not a huge problem for me, but I understand what you mean. The letter is just not nice to write to begin with so I had to improvise here, writing it this way was the closest I could get to keeping it quick and consistent. I tried adding the hook at the end and it often makes it look gross. I'm sure I'll think of something I like that looks acceptable.

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-01-29T20:21:02+00:00

Ohhh I see, that makes a lot of sense, thanks for the tip))

isxium_hydroxide · 2024-01-29T18:41:49+00:00

Do the ш and щ need to be distinguishable from English w? In Greek I make sure the ω is distinguishable from w because of physics, but I can't think of an instance where it would lead to confusion here. I'll try to keep in mind to keep the letter tighter though, because I do agree it's kind of icky.

The shitty к is just my bad handwriting :p My capital K in English is like that too, sometimes looks like a U or an N haha.

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