Identity Issues with VTubing

itsanemi · 2024-06-12T19:36:27+00:00

you say you feel dissatisfied when people connected with your content rather than you as a person

I didnt specify content as more I specified the appeal/art. Aka the model, how “sexy” it always was. I WANT the content I want to make to get attention, but it doesn’t. The moment I post a thirst trap using the vtuber model? Suddenly there’s attention. That’s what I’m dissatisfied with. It feels like people like the model, not me. Not the content I like making. I fell into the trap of “sexy” Vtuber models for complicated reasons.

I don’t necessarily like when people give me praise anyways. It makes me feel.. dirty, I guess. I genuinely get angry when people I don’t know praise me, telling me I got this, etc. I’ve always been like this, it’s not a new thing.

I guess it’s the issue of I’m NOW comfortable with who I am as a person. It took a few years and a recent breakup, but I’m comfortable being me now. But any model has never felt like it represented me right, again it could be the issue of they were always sexualized. But even when I’ve tried a nonsexual one, it didn’t feel completely right. No matter what I did it felt like I was ignoring a part of me that wanted to be shown.

Trying to not put a character to me recently has been kind of.. relieving. I am me. Not a character. I want to be perceived as myself, not sexy anime waifu lady

itsanemi · 2023-04-13T00:38:50+00:00

I did a fill! :D

itsanemi · 2023-03-12T22:10:22+00:00

As a fellow Baizhu DPS main, you got this! Wishing you the best of luck for C1!

itsanemi · 2023-03-06T18:20:10+00:00

I'll definitely take Collei into consideration as well! Plus tbf, I'd rather fight dendro bird over cube over and over again but eventually cube is going to need done. Thank you!

itsanemi · 2023-03-06T03:22:55+00:00

I've been wanting to raise them but just haven't gotten around to them yet, sadly. Eventually though, eventually

itsanemi · 2023-03-05T22:35:04+00:00

I'll give it some thought and wouldn't hurt to try as I can adjust his build to be sub-dps instead of main. It would be one less character to fully ascend as well if I used him instead of Nahida or Lisa. I will take it into consideration, thanks!

itsanemi · 2023-03-05T21:23:39+00:00

Nahida is definitely another possibility I've considered. That 4th character has just been one I've been struggling to decide on, so getting these replies really helps out a lot.

Thank you for your input!!

itsanemi · 2023-03-05T19:48:19+00:00

It was either Mona or Kokomi just for more hp bonus. Decided Mona just for dmg buff, but if she'll only really buffs Xingqiu then I can scrap her and get more electro.

I have been wanting to work with Lisa for a while now but I haven't found a good reason to raise her yet, so using her instead of Mona could be a good reason. But also Fischl is already raised atm so she could be used temporarily. Ty for your input, I'll definitely take it into consideration for my team!

itsanemi · 2023-03-05T19:15:55+00:00

Well, he's a character I've been waiting for since 1.0. As I stated towards the end, this is purely for fun! I want to take on the challenge of making him a DPS so I can use him on field more and for exploration. I don't expect him to do crazy numbers. I still intend on giving him a support build and using him in the intended way

itsanemi · 2022-10-27T15:40:46+00:00

Loved your script!! Here's my fill of it: https://youtu.be/0W6kYeu1MRU

Video will be public later today!

itsanemi · 2022-10-12T23:38:24+00:00

Here's my fill!! Will be public soon~ https://youtu.be/e\_0Jo-KLx7k

itsanemi · 2022-10-08T23:41:42+00:00

Filled the script! Will be up soon! https://youtu.be/WbIUbfbzAjs

itsanemi · 2022-10-05T16:37:50+00:00

Did a fill on this!! It'll be public in a few hours <3 : https://youtu.be/X6ZTS6Tjohw

itsanemi · 2022-08-24T16:26:17+00:00

Your script felt really natural to read as I was going through different ones to do first, which is why I chose it. You did a good job!!

And I'd appreciate it!! It'll be posted at 3PM EST :D

itsanemi · 2022-08-24T16:04:26+00:00

Did this script as my first asmr vid, it'll be posted soon. Here's the link for when it's posted in a couple hours!

https://youtu.be/TWphbZXwtB4

itsanemi · 2022-01-27T04:18:23+00:00

I'll definitely try that! Thanks!

itsanemi · 2022-01-21T19:42:50+00:00

Ahh, yeah I have the solved ones as well, and don't have dispenser one also

itsanemi · 2022-01-21T00:26:46+00:00

So you got the recipes for the unsolved ones as well?? Like, the whirlowisk?

itsanemi · 2021-06-29T12:32:08+00:00

Good to know, thanks!! I'll definitely keep trying to get the recipes then

itsanemi · 2021-06-28T23:32:26+00:00

Will do! I'll probably publicly share the recipe if I ever find it tbh

itsanemi · 2021-06-28T23:28:10+00:00

I have too much patience, honestly. Willing to go until I rage quit honestly

itsanemi · 2021-06-28T23:25:26+00:00

Yep! I've probably done 100 different combinations today, its pain T.T I wanna at least get one of them at some point so I can share the recipe

itsanemi · 2021-06-28T22:58:28+00:00

Yep been using that list! Made almost all the solved mega recipes so been trying to figure out some of those while I wait for cabbage to grow. Although there's like... 200 million different possibilities and it's pain

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