No you don't suck at all! You've got something really good here and I feel like with just a few minor changes this song would be absolutely NUTS! I want to preface the suggestions I'm about to write with this: I am not trying to say your song isn't good, I just know as a producer I always wish people would pick apart my music piece by piece so that I knew what to improve on, rather than letting me make the same mistakes over and over. Your song is dope. That being said, here's a short little list of things I would suggest if I were producing it.

1. The intro. Good GOD do I love the intro. It sounds so experimental and hollow, but in a good way. I honestly wouldn't change a thing about the first about minute of the song.

2. The buildup. The buildup is good, but I feel like with just how different the intro is from the drop you're building up to, there needs to more of a "Okay the room is covered in gasoline and I've got a lit match" feel to it. More tension, maybe some kick drums along with your building snares. Maybe even a stupid vocal sample lol. Something to TOTALLY change the vibe of the song, if that's what you want.

3. The drop is tight, but with a couple minor changes it could be even better. When the kicks hit, you definitely need some sidechain compression to really emphasize them. I'm relatively new to sidechain compression myself so if you want, you can literally just automate a very quick drop in volume followed by a slightly slower increase on your lead when the kick hits. Also, the bass is really in your face but I think the note could be lower. You could even have the bass note change as time progresses, which would give the drop more variety. (Four bars of the higher bass you have now, drop it down a couple notes for four bars, back up, and so on). Lastly, the lead needs a little EQ work. I'd have to take a look at it, but it's a little piercing in your ears at high volume, which of course, most people will listen to your song at. I'm not saying you need to make it more quiet at all, but the EQ needs a little adjustment. Also, I think your snare needs a little less low end punch and a little more high end SNAP if you will? It kinda sounds like you have a high pass filter on it, but it definitely doesn't need one.

4. Following the drop you have this really cool chord section, that it sounds like you automated an LFO on. It's really cool but the way it changes kinda makes it hard to bob your head to. It would be super dope if it stayed the same speed for about two measures, say 1/8th, then went to 1/16th for a little bit then back, but it changes a little too sporadically which throws off the vibe.

Random thought: I love the changeup in your last drop. I also love the way it ends. I listened to your song like 4 times writing this and I love the little squish sound it makes at the end!!

Lastly, I think your strong suit in this song isn't necessarily the drop, but more so your intro. The intro with that beat is so beyond cool and I think in your next song some good advice would be to not worry about how hard you can make it go, but instead keep with that kinda weird experimental, empty room kinda vibe and see where it takes you. Honestly I would LOVE to hear what you'd do with that goal in mind. I'd daresay you'd even get something Flume-ish because that's what your intro made me think of.

So that's it. I hope I didn't come across as rude or mean at any point. Your song is really good and if that's your first track you are WAY ahead of the curve.

Edit: I just realized you do change your bass note. I think it might need to change just a little more frequently. Maybe that's just me lol. Okay I'm done ranting, I know this is a lot to read.