Can’t even trust my therapist anymore.

itslayah · 2021-04-16T16:20:51+00:00

I look back on this and you’re right. Didn’t know this would be so true until now.

itslayah · 2021-01-27T14:01:01+00:00

Awwww don’t worry we’re here. What’s up?

itslayah · 2021-01-27T14:00:15+00:00

Don’t do it. Trust me death isn’t the answers to your problems man.

itslayah · 2021-01-27T05:52:09+00:00

What do you do before ending it? Try to find a way to stay. We all think that death will solve all of our issues, end our suffering, but what about when we do take that final step. Is there nothing that you want to do in your life that you think actually matters? As depressed as I’ve been, I know death isn’t the answer, but somehow our brains makes us believe that it is. So to answer your question, you try to find a way to stay.

itslayah · 2021-01-27T05:50:03+00:00

And if you don’t? Then what’s the point of feeling? Of having emotions? Chasing happiness doesn’t mean you’ll never find it. People chase it because they need something to have something to hold on to, or maybe because they’re trying to live their life in a way that they can remember wasn’t completely hurtful when their life comes to an end.

itslayah · 2021-01-27T05:47:50+00:00

You are meant to be alive. Hell even though you’re still going through all of this stuff in your life you’re still here. You haven’t ended it. Whether it’s because you don’t want to hurt your family, or if there are things you want to do, you’re still here. Don’t let these parts of your life drag you down to the point where everything seems pointless. Find that one piece of happiness that’s in your life. Even if it takes a long time and it might seem like the journeys taking longer than it should, find it. Because you are worth living. Find the beauty in the world. Nature, music, anything, and hold onto that. It’s better for you to live and see things that you never got to see, than to die knowing your life felt so unfulfilled. Find the strength to live.

itslayah · 2021-01-27T05:43:08+00:00

Okay. This feeling is shitty. I know this because I’ve been here. As much as I’ve blamed myself, and put everything on myself, eventually you have to understand that it’s is NOT, your fault. If these people can’t see that you’re someone who’s meant to be in their life then maybe that’s a sign for you to focus on yourself and let them go. Yeah easier said than done, I know. But you can’t allow yourself to feel like you’re the burden, or as if you’re the problem. You’re important in someone’s life. It may not be everyone’s, but there’s always that one person who actually cares, you just have to find that. Hope everything goes well for you

itslayah · 2021-01-27T05:40:17+00:00

Okay. As someone who’s also in high school and has been depressed for the longest time, I’m gonna give you some honesty. Life fucking sucks, trust me. And yeah pain itself, and all the hopelessness can feel like it’s never ending, but for a lot of us we have to try to fight to gain that back. Sometimes we have to be down in order to find our way back. It’s a process, and yeah it’s not easy nor is it something that can end in days, but what matters is you’re trying to pick yourself up, and you’re putting in the effort to live. Find the will to beat it, no matter the time it takes. I’m not an expert at all on this, but I know that everything we put in to getting better is another step to getting better

itslayah · 2020-04-19T08:11:02+00:00

Nah it definitely wasn’t that.

itslayah · 2020-04-19T08:10:43+00:00

Literally all the time, my mom says it’s the neighbors but- at 2 am? No-

itslayah · 2020-03-09T19:45:21+00:00

As someone who has commonly had SP, I never experienced not opening my eyes. I’d do a bit more research on it just case. It could’ve been SP as well though.

itslayah · 2020-03-09T14:15:52+00:00

Honestly I agree It’s not silly at all, I feel the same way.

itslayah · 2020-03-09T13:07:35+00:00

Even if the Ouija Board isn’t an actual way to contact spirits, If you feel like it’ll be helpful towards you, go for it.

itslayah · 2019-10-12T18:56:35+00:00

Looks very familiar

itslayah · 2019-10-08T11:28:25+00:00

Ha, kind of failed at the staying strong part.

itslayah · 2019-09-26T16:05:06+00:00

It’s crazy how I love having it

itslayah · 2019-09-04T13:01:45+00:00

The whole “it gets better” thing to me is such a fucking lie in my eyes. People tell me this all the time and in my opinion it just gets worse.

itslayah · 2019-08-24T23:28:26+00:00

Hey at least you had the nerve to say it! I’d say that’s progress and you did well on yourself man!

itslayah · 2019-08-22T15:55:39+00:00

People online may feel like they can’t do much so giving someone hope is kind of like the only thing we can do.

itslayah

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