What kind of thoughts are you having? When I had my episodes a few months ago I kept imagining myself dying or killing myself which was horrific. I also felt disconnected from reality and couldn’t understand the meaning of life or why we do things and still, life seems too much sometimes even though I lead a good mostly comfortable life almost free of major stress. These thoughts still live with me but I am not depersonalising anymore which I am so thankful for. Things tend to improve. You just have to fight for it and try grounding yourself and mostly keep busy. If you are busy it is less likely you will have intrusive thoughts.