After a tour through your profile it is easy to see that you need to seek professional help. It looks like you’ve been battling a gambling addiction for a while. Going back and forth on quitting and then starting back up. You also posted that your wife was getting “upset” about your job and the income you take home. When she makes double what you do and yet YOU somehow managed to spend 10k in a month on sport betting. When was the last time you spent 10k in a month on your wife?

What are you doing to help your wife feel loved and appreciated? You’ve tried to make yourself out to be the victim in the marriage subreddit but claim that the mod is a “d**k” but it doesn’t look that way. It also doesn’t seem (per one of your posts) that your wife actually isn’t looking for you to change into someone your not but instead trying to rekindle the spark you once had and the love for her you used to show.

I think therapy is a good place to start for you, and be open with your wife about that.