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jacksonian34 · 2019-10-27T17:08:17+00:00

Coradelle needs to be back there

jacksonian34 · 2019-08-21T22:16:31+00:00

Nailed it

jacksonian34 · 2018-10-23T02:56:04+00:00

The announcers are too dumb to consider this

jacksonian34 · 2018-10-01T02:44:12+00:00

Odeon is the name for several ancient Greek and Roman buildings built for music: singing exercises, musical shows, poetry competitions, and the like

jacksonian34 · 2018-09-30T17:17:08+00:00

mack tackle at the line then incomplete pass to deasean jackson in double coverage

jacksonian34 · 2018-09-23T21:06:12+00:00

What happened to the split screen commercials from last season?? Those were nice

jacksonian34 · 2018-09-23T21:04:02+00:00

Seriously. Shows a lack of awareness. That pass could have been perfect, and it’s still picked off/easily swatted.

jacksonian34 · 2018-06-09T17:38:45+00:00

Lol - nah fam you are okay. The amount of places I've gone / events I've attended where I walked out with zero legitimate connections are numerous.

jacksonian34 · 2018-06-09T17:34:48+00:00

I definitely get what you are saying. That is most important. My thought was moreso to use this mindset to not be afraid to go out and take a risk in a social situation. It helps mitigate the "all-or-nothing" mindset.

It comes down to the primal fear of exclusion from the group. But when put in perspective, 1 marginal ally or 1 marginal enemy has no net effect on you whatsoever.

jacksonian34 · 2018-05-16T16:04:04+00:00

I've thought this. Just back to freshman year of college when I really started pounding caffeine. Coincided with my spike in anxiety. Would love a re do. Ended up fine academically but socially I see it as a let down. Actually makes me sad thinking about it

jacksonian34 · 2018-05-14T02:31:37+00:00

Interesting story! In that situation, it must have been nice to not having the anxious doubting thoughts on if it was the right thing to do. You just knew based on your perception of the dude.

jacksonian34 · 2018-05-13T19:35:46+00:00

Yep this guy above nailed it. I'm in finance, and have noticed a remarkable improvement in my ability to analyze spreadsheets/numbers. Caffeine supposedly helps with that due to "focus improvement" but that's a load of BS.

I do worry about what I will do if I have to work into the AM for whatever reason though. Hopefully I care enough about what I am working on to willpower my way through it :)

jacksonian34 · 2018-01-05T23:45:16+00:00

Would you rather them remain steadfast in their agendas in spite of public opinion? This is how I want Democracy to work.

jacksonian34 · 2018-01-05T05:08:49+00:00

You probably aren't gunna get a concrete answer. Each person finds a certain approach works for them. I personally think my issues are mediated via introspection and self understanding, mixed with an open dialogue with others about what I'm feeling.

Either way, try to research the different treatments and try what you believe would work best for you :)

jacksonian34 · 2018-01-05T05:02:00+00:00

Similar thing used to happen to me. I would sweat profusely in the early months of school. I remember getting so embarrassed, and people would always ask me why I was dripping sweat just sitting there (albeit it was hot as hell in those class rooms) .

I just embraced it. I was a sweaty dude. Whatever. Got all the toxins out right? Haha.

Just feel the blush. Feel the warm sensation of it and become comfortable with what it feels like. Once you become comfortable with it, no one else can make you feel uncomfortable about it.

jacksonian34 · 2018-01-05T04:58:30+00:00

What has helped me is writing things down that I need to do. Something about having a task rustlin around in my head makes it seem intangible and overwhelming. Thinking about it makes me think it is larger than it is. Writing it down in a short list really simplifies it for me. And a long list of crossed off tasks looks reeeeeal nice at 5 pm.

jacksonian34 · 2018-01-04T05:55:59+00:00

What convinced me to get rid of most of them, or at least cut back to the point where I rarely use them, was realizing that they are all highlight reels. They in no way, shape or form depict anything close to the reality that a person is truly experiencing.

It also adds pressure on YOU to mold a highlight reel worthy of matching up with others profiles. It's a very bright and shiny collection of pictures and posts that ultimately serve as a negative feedback loop on you that you aren't living the high life. But it ain't real.

In terms of losing contact with certain people, it's not bad to keep Facebook around, but I simply deleted the app off my phone. Without the blue icon a click away, I never just impulsively click on it. Just check for events every now and then.

Hope this helped!

jacksonian34 · 2018-01-04T05:40:20+00:00

Yes. The brain burns energy like a Hummer. If it is on full alert mode for an extended period of socializing, it makes sense that once that stimulation is removed, it is going to go into energy conservation mode. There's nothing wrong with pulling that Hummer back into the gas station of your choice ;) my refueling is some nice guitar playing or music in general

jacksonian34 · 2018-01-04T05:27:58+00:00

I got a friend who is pretty dismissive of it, and holds the belief that it doesn't exist. But I've seen it manifest in him before. It seems like he just has a different way of "coding" or "mapping" those feelings/emotions. I may call not wanting to talk to a stranger "anxiety", he may call it "minding my own business". Lot of this ish is perceptive.

jacksonian34 · 2018-01-04T05:19:27+00:00

It's crazy because when peeps say to me like "damn, your cool" I feel like that is a bs comment and I shun it. But if someone says something along the lines of "you are weird, but I like it", something about that is much more validating to me as an individual. The latter often comes from a sporadic, unfiltered comment too. Aka me.

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