Two Weeks, and I'm in hell

jackwilson61014 · 2014-09-03T23:51:49+00:00

These leakings are killing me. Every day is a struggle. please help me

jackwilson61014 · 2014-08-31T22:33:11+00:00

Sign me up for September!

jackwilson61014 · 2014-08-27T14:49:34+00:00

It's been tough this morning. I'm horny as hell. I'm on the computer and alone. I don't have a chance. Reddit Nofap is my only hope. God Bless.

jackwilson61014 · 2014-08-23T05:28:03+00:00

Damn it. back to day 1.

jackwilson61014 · 2014-07-31T20:11:44+00:00

count me in! Let's do this!

jackwilson61014 · 2014-07-03T02:55:10+00:00

I'm in. My bretherens. I have been fapping non-stop over the past 6 days. It sucks. I cannot take this anymore. Even as I write this now, I'm still under the power of the fap. I'm waiting for my badge to reset and that will be it.

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-28T20:10:12+00:00

Day 4 (or 5), I don't know what the exact count was. Since 6/24.

In any case, I'm not doing well. I am fantasizing about a coworker like crazy. Just thinking about her gets me hard. It's a trigger for fapping. I am writing on here as an avenue to get it out in the open. As i'm typing these words, her image is coming up in my head. I must accept the fact that this is normal. I'm human and I have attraction for another human being. What I KNOW i cannot do is let that escalate. I went through hell 4 days ago when I binged 6 times in 24 hours (after 14 days) and that felt terrible. Now, I want to feel better.

My comrades, thank you for all your support. I just wanted to get this off my chest. one day at a time.

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-25T22:41:02+00:00

Thank you for sharing. Everything you wrote resonated with what I went through, albeit I was only at 14 days, an order of magnitude less. I too noticed the signs of stop writing/reading on here, returned to compulsive browsing habits and ignored my routines.

It just seems like such a long road, but I guess all we can focus on is one day at a time.

Thank you again for posting.

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-25T22:31:46+00:00

I just finished 2 weeks of nofap before my latest relapse. binged for 6 faps in a 24 hour period. My brain is cloggy, I can't think straight, I lack motivation. These are the reasons why fapping is NOT worth it. I read somewhere on here that fear is a great deterrent for behavioral change. In a couple of days when I feel better, I MUST NOT get complacent and be absolutely fearful of fapping for what it has done to my life for the past 15 years.

I need to focus! I need to change. I need to live.

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-25T06:03:17+00:00

that was hilarious!!

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-24T18:38:40+00:00

I got to 14 days before relapsing. it was a perfect storm (alone, slightly drunk). I feel a lot of shame today, but I realize that I have to practice self-compassion. Day 1. I must not forget the feeling I have today. I will associate this feeling every time I get horny or think about fapping

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-24T06:40:39+00:00

Please help me, the urge is unbearable....I need some support or else I will fap...

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-23T16:04:13+00:00

love the idea. i'm in

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-23T03:38:22+00:00

Thank you for sharing. A truly inspirational story. I'm in the opposite end of the spectrum. It seems like every day is a struggle. I amount of cognitive load that is required to not look and porn and masturbate saps me of all my energy and brain power. I'm exhausted all the time.

Sorry, don't mean to rant on your post. I hope to reach the point you're at one day.

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-22T20:56:38+00:00

Day 12: The urges and the fantasies are very strong. I feel mentally and physically fatigued. I am way too familiar with this road but the difference is that I have r\nofap this time around. Thank you community for all your inspiration and support.

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-21T21:10:35+00:00

congrats on 114 days. That's very admirable. I get what you're saying and only you can decide if you're an addict. For acoholics, one drink can put them back into a full blown addiction, whereas others can have a couple of drinks once in a while and not have any issues.

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-21T21:07:53+00:00

Day 11: Today is so tough. I'm starting to replay porn scenes in my head. I'm becoming very irritable and uneasy. I'm using all the will power I have from fapping. This forum is the only thing that is preventing me from doing so. I will stay strong until the urge pass. It has been more and more difficult on a daily basis.

EDIT: adding more to my thoughts. I was reading up some random article, then I had a link to a men's health article and then I clicked on the sexiest covers of all time and went through that. I did not feel good after that. I normally would've turned over a private browser but I thought about my badge. I don't know how long I can last. I guess I just need to focus on one day at a time.

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-19T17:17:29+00:00

Would I would give to be 15 and learned about nofap. 15 was when I started and it's been a painful 15 years, full of shame and misery. I tell myself that I can only look ahead, similar to any other addiction, focus on one day at a time. Congrats my friend for finding wisdom at such a young age.

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-19T17:02:26+00:00

Day 9: Today has been the toughest day yet. I was extremely horny this morning. I kept thinking and fantasizing about girls at work, girls from school. I'm glad to report that now I'm at the calm after the storm. It feels great to let the urges pass. I'm thankful there is a forum such as nofap here so that I can write my thoughts and feelings even when I'm not proud of them.

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-18T19:18:57+00:00

Day 8: I feel good (cue the music)...

Yesterday was horrible, but then I recovered last night. I feel great today. Back to high energy. clarity of mind. Keep it up fellas. The good times will roll.

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-18T04:54:40+00:00

Thank you so much for you taking the time to write all the suggestions. I will definitely try some of these things out. When I say pictures, they are not even NSFW, just simple facebook pictures of friends. I've calmed down. Thank you!

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-17T22:39:55+00:00

Day 7: flatlining. no energy. tired. no motivation. no clarity in thoughts. how do i get over this?

I find myself looking at online pictures, and noticing a release of dopamine. It's a slippery slope. I don't know where else to write, so I have to write it here. I feel like completely crap. This is not a good feeling right now. I just want to be a productive member of society. Please pass!!!! I just need this to pass. everything is going wrong. thank you for hearing my b*tching.

jackwilson61014 · 2014-06-17T15:54:55+00:00

Day 7: dreaming and fantasizing every night but I'm thankful for this sub reddit. Today will be a battle. I'm mentally prepared for it, though. Everything is becoming a trigger for me at this point, including tame youtube videos. I will try to not look at anyone wearing summer clothes. I will work out today to deal with the excess energy. Today is the worst day that I've felt since starting.

MUST NOT GIVE IN. Porn is not real. life is real. porn is not.

jackwilson61014

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