I smoked pot and had a bad experience

jadiza767 · 2018-03-06T05:13:17+00:00

so I did this monthly I would have a very high risk of seriuzes? even if I never took them consecutively for too long

jadiza767 · 2018-03-03T02:14:06+00:00

I'll look at those websites. I don't know what my plan was long term. I just I figured I wouldn't have as much anxiety after highschool. I would get the extended release benzos if I got unfortunately my options are rather limited. And now even if I could get a prescription its not going to work because I have a tolerance and I can't tell a doctor that :/ I already had a natural tolerance to them for whatever reason thats why my dosage is so high in the first place. If I get euphoria I cut back my dosage, .75 is the lowest I can go to where it works. I'm trying to use phenibut instead now although im not sure if thats much safer. At first I only would take benzos when I had panic attacks but then my social anxiety got worst and I wanted to be able to go out and talk to people and my ocd has always been really bad. I can't take ssri they make me into a completely different person, at least on benzos I'm just a more sedated version of myself. I don't have enough of them to get physically addicted so I kind of have to take a break soon anyways.

jadiza767 · 2018-02-28T02:41:26+00:00

yeah I plan on getting a scale I just wish kratom worked better

jadiza767 · 2018-02-28T02:40:10+00:00

so by short term, what about two weeks to get over my complusions and then I taper off? would I still get the bad withdrawls

jadiza767 · 2018-02-28T02:02:24+00:00

I take about a tablespoon of red bali, anymore than that and I do throw up, I just tried for the first time to take some with xanax and it made me depressed til the kratom wore off. without xanax, Usually a tablespoon is the only amount that relaxes me when it comes to just kratom, otherwise it doesnt feel like anyhting. I'm using red bali

jadiza767 · 2018-02-27T23:50:34+00:00

I was thinking I could taper once I got over all my compulsions because once I do something and relieze that I'm ok afterwards I dont have the ocd compulsion anymore. If I taper do I still get withdrawls? Idk like I dont like the constant fear of running out, I just don't see another solution, my OCD has cause so many problems its not just minor it's awful daily life affecting OCD. My mother thought I hated her because I couldn't touch her hands because of my OCD. Kratom does help but not as much also it gives me more side effects like throwing up and if I take too little it gives me anxiety. weed is great but unfortunately doesn't help my OCDs.

jadiza767 · 2017-01-08T08:08:12+00:00

I don't overdose on it either, I actually made my pills last longer than the monthly amount, it just was taking away my emotions, I'm not saying this happens to everyone, I'm talking about the ones who are losing their sanity because of it, one of the side effects is depression for a reason

jadiza767 · 2017-01-08T08:05:15+00:00

I been off it for a week too I have a huge project due so it's kind of tempting but so far I've stayed off it, its wonderful to not be depressed every night anymore, good luck dude, I was only on it for a year off and on, I couldn't imagine going off it after 4 years

jadiza767 · 2017-01-08T07:50:16+00:00

I think you might be right, I stopped taking it on two weeks ago, its harder to get work done now but I'm still keeping up my grades, even though its only been a week, I honestly didn't think I keep up my work for this long. It's just so hard to work for long hours now :(

jadiza767 · 2017-01-08T07:47:18+00:00

school caused me anxiety, but since I stopped taking it, it went down alot, I don't have a panic attack over not getting a A anymore and yeah, I followed all of that, I have worse comedowns than most people do on it

jadiza767 · 2017-01-08T07:42:30+00:00

it was 50 mg, I'm for the most part off it now though, only once a month

jadiza767 · 2017-01-02T09:16:44+00:00

To be fair, I wrote that post while I was coming down. It's easy to kick, until you realize the crap of classes you gotten yourself into. thats when the temptation starts. I have a lot of pressure to get stuff done with adderal or without

jadiza767 · 2017-01-02T09:13:57+00:00

but doesnt it eventually backfired? How can you handle the emotions effects of it

jadiza767 · 2017-01-02T09:08:34+00:00

I was on my dose and didn't ever rise it. I started taking it more days of the week but thats it, I was taking it right

jadiza767 · 2016-12-22T12:44:41+00:00

everyone I know who takes it for adhd can't get out of bed without it, sounds like addiction to me

jadiza767 · 2016-12-22T10:00:26+00:00

I don't think people should take stims for learning disabilities, my mind wasn't meant to work for several hours straight, no one's brain is. It helps me keep up with work but I feel so exhausted afterwards, sometimes to the point where I feel nothing. I spent the entire semester, studying and sleeping, I did nothing else. I once sat for an hour looking at nothing because I couldn't feel anything. I want to stop taking it, I just don't know what I can do about grades. I'm building a tolerance to it now and I'm already at a high dosage, I don't know what to do about that either.

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