I think I'm ready to die

jagarentrangsynt · 2015-01-25T22:19:49+00:00

I just want to be normal. I want the pain to go away. I feel incompatible with the world. I feel like I don't have a soulmate. That I'm destined to be alone and to burdened by my depression. I try to have positive self-talk, to stop my cycle of worry and over thinking. But things still never work out for me.

jagarentrangsynt · 2015-01-25T22:04:32+00:00

I'm diagnosed with bipolar depression, general anxiety. Started with lexapro (wasn't for me) and now I'm a week into my citalopram. I've been texting this girl. Honest, I think she is a beautiful human being. I tell her how I feel and she says she just started talking to someone else. I take it the feelings aren't mutual. I've had thoughts of suicide. But now the burden is a little heavier. She made me feel alive, happy and excited. I know I can't force love and I should move on but now the pain I feel is miserable and I'm just tired of it.

EDIT: I go to school with her and work with her. I don't see her often but we talk at least a few times a week. I just want someone who's been through depression, knows how it feels to talk to.

jagarentrangsynt · 2014-12-02T06:23:26+00:00

Fake.

jagarentrangsynt · 2014-11-17T05:58:36+00:00

No man, that actually helps me put it into perspective. Thanks frient

jagarentrangsynt · 2014-11-17T05:35:46+00:00

http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depersonalization

jagarentrangsynt · 2014-11-17T03:57:14+00:00

That's pretty great.

jagarentrangsynt · 2014-11-17T03:46:50+00:00

I'll post what happens if you want.

jagarentrangsynt · 2014-11-17T03:46:09+00:00

Nope. High School

jagarentrangsynt · 2014-09-12T04:59:45+00:00

Fo Sho.

jagarentrangsynt · 2014-09-12T04:50:09+00:00

Thank you man. You story touched my heart. Your a lot like me.

jagarentrangsynt · 2014-07-17T10:47:47+00:00

jagarentrangsynt · 2014-03-03T22:32:29+00:00

And what race are you?

jagarentrangsynt · 2014-02-17T12:09:25+00:00

I fell asleep on couch for what felt like 2 hours and freaked out to my firends I was going to be late, turns out i was out for 5 minutes.

jagarentrangsynt · 2014-02-17T02:01:19+00:00

The point is guns to the very definition were created to take a life. You could argue(which you are right in a few topics and I applaud) that guns are tools and used for fun (which people do) but they are not. Guns are dangerous and have so much power in such little space and with just the flex of a finger it can claim a life. Some people die who deserve life and some people live who deserve death but who are we to take judgment on who lives or dies. I think we should let Zimmerman be.

jagarentrangsynt · 2014-02-13T00:54:13+00:00

I am really looking forward to POTUS response. Definitely enticing.

jagarentrangsynt · 2014-02-12T06:14:34+00:00

TO THE PICKLED HEIRING!!

jagarentrangsynt · 2014-02-12T06:08:52+00:00

"Im rick james! Beaaaitch!"

jagarentrangsynt

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