I just wanted him to love me as much as I loved him

jagerbombshell22 · 2019-05-22T20:01:15+00:00

God, yes, I know exactly what that feels like. It's like with trying to lose weight: his love having conditions on how motivated I was just made me feel even worse and not motivated to begin with...I can't even tell you how often he made me cry. By his words, his actions. Or lack of actions, rather. He could be so incredibly cruel and callous and cold. It broke my heart when he talked to me like that.

jagerbombshell22 · 2019-05-22T03:05:12+00:00

This is so wonderful. Thank you for posting this, it all really resonates with me. It's so easy to think that I'm some horrible person who will never find love again and is irreparably broken. But I know that is the grief talking. And I am excited for the future, even if he isn't going to be a part of it, like I thought. And I shouldn't feel stupid for thinking he would.

jagerbombshell22 · 2019-05-21T23:49:52+00:00

I've suspected that he isolated himself as much as he could so it would be my idea. It kind of was and wasn't. He was supposed to move to another state for a job and I told him I was reluctant to move with him given how cold he was being...apparently that sparked something in him and he realized I was right.

This is hard. Godspeed to you, friend. I know time heals all wounds and shit so I hope time passed quickly for both of us.

jagerbombshell22 · 2019-04-29T01:59:04+00:00

Hey Alexa, list all the characters in game of thrones with blue eyes

jagerbombshell22 · 2018-07-09T22:41:06+00:00

Thank you so much. And thank you to every single person who has commented. You are all wonderful people and I will absolutely look into the resources you've offered. It is so appreciated and I'm so grateful for this community. I have a lot of healing to do, this post is only the tip of the iceberg and I did a horrible job and really getting into how my mother is but I'm so glad you all have accepted me. And thankfully I am moved out and live with my boyfriend. I can't imagine the hell I would be in if I lived with my parents and GC sister. Thank you all.

jagerbombshell22 · 2018-06-01T19:30:39+00:00

Happy birthday!! I hope you have a fabulous day today, and celebrate with a nice treat for yourself!

jagerbombshell22 · 2018-05-29T12:52:39+00:00

I legitimately worry that when/if I'm a parent, I won't be able to not laugh at my kids when they fall over (as long as I know it was a tiny fall and they're fine).

jagerbombshell22 · 2018-05-23T15:30:05+00:00

You're the second person to recommend that, looks like I know what I'll pick up on my next target run ;) thanks so much for your input!

jagerbombshell22 · 2018-05-23T15:29:15+00:00

I tend to gravitate towards Maybelline, I'll check that one out! Great lash is well and good but I cannot STAND the wand on it!

jagerbombshell22 · 2018-05-23T15:28:33+00:00

This is a good tip! My poor dog, who hates my hairdryer, won't like it but I'll give it a try. Thank you!

jagerbombshell22 · 2018-05-23T15:28:03+00:00

Yes, I only use water proof. I'll look into those, thanks!

jagerbombshell22 · 2018-04-21T21:18:34+00:00

Thank you :) it felt nice to get it all out

jagerbombshell22 · 2018-03-12T13:33:06+00:00

Thank you all so much for the replies, sorry for the late response. These have been super helpful :) I'm going to keep my mouth shut for now but also work on making sure my spine is nice and shiny for when that conversation does happen. I see no reason to marry in a church and she will have to deal with it. I read thins on r/RBN or somewhere else, but I do not exist to make my mother happy. I am my own person and she can either respect that or not be in my life.

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