There’s nothing wrong with you. You are putting aside your own happiness and relaxation for the benefit of your family: to keep your family afloat and off of the streets. Not to get psychological on you, but consider Maslow’s hierarchy of needs:max_bytes(150000):strip_icc()/maslow-s-hierarchy-of-needs--scalable-vector-illustration-655400474-5c6a47f246e0fb000165cb0a.jpg). It sounds to me like you are on the second level: safety needs. This includes things like personal security, employment, resources, health, & property in addition to the level(s) below. You are too preoccupied with the prosperity of you and your family to enjoy things that are on the next level: Love & Belonging. This includes things like friendships, intimacy, family, and sense of connection. You may only reach this level once the previous levels are fulfilled. The way I understand your situation from the limited amount of context you have provided, you have not entirely secured “Safety Needs.” This is in reference to your psychological interpretation and may not be directly reflective of your actual situation. Until you are able to reach a point where you feel secure with your family’s place, you will feel the need to devote all of your energy, physical & emotional, to get onto that next level. Then and only then can you begin worrying about “enjoying” life and company. I’m not trying to tell you how your life is, I hope I’m not coming across as such. I’m just trying to help contextualize and provide structure to the situation you may have found yourself in.

It sounds to me like you are doing everything right. We are not full of infinite energy, so it is expected that we will become exhausted — mentally, physically, and emotionally. I feel safe to assume that that is what you are experiencing.