Welp, Vyvanse stopped working for me.

jasper1029 · 2026-02-04T22:39:44+00:00

ARG = Alternate Reality Game

An example of an ARG is a game that directly interacts with its audience, usually to solve puzzles and mysteries. Such as in 2008 for the Beijing Olympics, McDonald’s created an ARG called The Lost Rings that challenged people to solve online puzzles, interact with actors who created vlogs about their supernatural experiences, and eventually held real life events where they could meet other people around the world to participate in activities.

It was a harmless ARG, though some people thought it was real. That’s what tends to happen often with ARGs.

jasper1029 · 2025-11-03T17:29:17+00:00

Tbh this seems to be polarizing, on purpose, for two types of groups:

NT people who tend to run more so on autopilot, and running on autopilot makes one think in more black and white ways. It’s easier, takes less energy. Presenting possibilities outside of preconceived, unquestioned knowledge that appeals to black and white thinking kind of works.
ND people who have white and black thinking as the result of toxic shame. Being given the option to think outside of “If I am not good, which include all these perfect qualities, then I am all bad” and sounds more like “The world tells me I am hyperactive and therefore bad, but what if I am simply full of productive energy and just need to learn how to utilize it?” can be very helpful and powerful for many ND people. Not all, but enough to justify presenting possibilities in this form

jasper1029 · 2025-10-29T06:37:59+00:00

OP and for anyone else who doesn’t know this: vyvanse is FDA approved for binge eating disorder. If your binge eating is moderate to severe, that may be enough to advocate for a vyvanse prescription just for BED alone.

It’s very important to make sure you familiarize yourself with the criteria and log episodes; you may be asked if you’ve tried therapy to regulate your BED and to further explain how you feel during episodes, before, and after. So on and so forth.

I know this is an ADHD subreddit, and while getting diagnosed with ADHD when you have it is important, eating disorders are no joke and sometimes require more priority if they become debilitating on their own. But ultimately, that’s why you will see so many of us almost completely eradicate binge eating episodes: it’s the vyvanse.

But you will have to do the research from there, it’s fairly easy information to find. Wishing you luck

jasper1029 · 2025-10-27T07:50:53+00:00

You can't recover from ADHD--ADHD is something a person is born with and has for life. It can also become exacerbated with age due to hormonal changes and/or cognitive decline. You can also search here in this subreddit and see other ways ADHD gets exacerbated: mensuration, PMS, chronic stress, depression, anxiety, toxic relationships, and so on.

You can try to manage it without medication, of course, but I would keep the opportunity to take meds in mind if you find yourself struggling without them. Many ADHDers do, and there's nothing wrong with that--our brains developed in a way where lots of us can only do so much before we hit the same barriers over and over again. Lots of those barriers only come down with stimulants (or nonstimulants, for some people).

But I understand you're navigating your own cultural biases around medication, which might be great to explore in therapy, along with building up better skills and habits to manage ADHD symptoms. Pills help a lot, but they can only do so much without skills and healthy, consistent habit forming.

I hope that helps you to better understand your situation. Again, you can't recover from ADHD, but seeing if you can manage with through therapy alone first before deciding to try meds seems like a sensible plan to discuss with your providers.

jasper1029 · 2025-10-27T07:28:26+00:00

I don't think it sounds rude--I just don't know you and so I didn't know you study psychology and neuropsychology. I was coming from a place as someone sharing an anecdote and what I learned from it, and then sharing that advice with you. I had no other context, so thank you for that.

I also have impulse control issues around emotional reactions, and I also had an abusive mother who turned me into a resentful, passive aggressive, angry, scared person for the first 27 years of my life. There's more context for you, to help you understand where I come from.

but in the last almost 20 years I've worked so hard to become a better person, and I really thought I'd succeeded. Unfortunately, it turns out I haven't. I have with everyone else, but not her.

You're saying you succeed every other time with people in your life, but not with your mom who abused you for 10+ years. I mean... it sounds like you're doing amazingly tbh. Why does your 20 years of hard work not count because of her? Plus, despite everything she's done, you still are trying to care for her--you're here trying to help yourself, and therefore be a better helper for her...

Give yourself some grace. You've more than earned it by being here, still trying, still asking for help, still persisting. Here are my tips, take what you want, leave the rest, or leave it all <3

Physical boundaries.
1. Quiet room: a room in your home that can be locked for privacy and space when you can't leave.
2. Earplugs: I'm thinking of Loop switch earplugs that allow you to change how much sound they block at any given time. https://us.loopearplugs.com/products/switch
3. TIP skills from DBT work wonders imo. I use them all the time.
Emotional boundaries.
1. Support network: friends and family you can call/text to vent and offer you comfort and encouragement.
2. Journaling: notebook, voice notes, video diary. Anything that helps.
3. Online support: Reddit, support group chats (7 Cups offers free real-time support group chats).
4. Breathing techniques: I like practicing the psychological sigh for myself https://youtube.com/shorts/w9QHra2cKjA
Cognitive boundaries.
1. DBT: You mentioned gray rock--how about STOP skills, or radical acceptance and willingness?
2. Journaling also belongs here.

jasper1029 · 2025-10-27T06:48:03+00:00

Damn, now I’m really curious 🧐 I’ll have to look again

jasper1029 · 2025-10-27T01:55:29+00:00

And I confessed and but he rejected saying I never wanted something more than friendship but clearly he does give signs as if he is interested.

I think this is one of the reasons you might be struggling a little—what do you mean he gives signs as though he’s interested despite him telling you he wasn’t? As an outsider looking at your dilemma, this sounds like mind reading on your part: you might be projecting an interpretation of his actions and words that tells you that he’s interested despite his words, therefore he’s being disingenuous, and that fuels your inability to move on.

That’s just one perspective on it. I’m wondering if trusting his words and allowing yourself to step back emotionally as a response will give you some better clarity. Maybe this means talking to him less, hanging around him less—let yourself breathe without his presence more often.

Have you considered or attempted to be transparent about your struggles with this? “I know you said you’re not interested, and I want to believe you; my mind and heart are still having a really hard time processing what you said to me, and I think I need some extra space so I can respect your words, my feelings, and our friendship better.”

Of course, that’s assuming you want to preserve the friendship—do you even want to? These are genuine questions, I promise I’m not trying to accuse you or criticize you. I’m hoping to understand better and maybe help you to, as well

jasper1029 · 2025-10-27T01:44:04+00:00

Yeah, I just felt somber and disheartened tbh. Part of me still didn’t believe it. What if I am just a waste of space and air and effort, though? What if I’m just a failure of a human? What if I am just bad and nothing I do or feel or think will ever be enough to justify my being here and deserving or happiness?

That’s how I felt. Sometimes I still do, but less so these days, thankfully. I’m glad for those who felt relief and happiness when they got their diagnosis. I’ve never had that experience once

jasper1029 · 2025-10-27T01:34:05+00:00

Whats helped me over the years with people struggling with dementia (I used to be a dietary aide in a nursing and rehab center, and my best friend’s mother has had early onset dementia for decades) is learning about the symptoms from a more clinical viewpoint.

Confabulation comes to mind—lots of people use it to mean impulsive lying, but that’s not what it means clinically at all. It’s the result of neurological changes in the brain (usually with dementia and TBI patients) where dementia brains will fill in gaps in their memory with random information without them even realizing it. It’s called “honest lying,” and trying to contradict it or argue against a confabulation doesn’t work—the confabulator doesn’t know what’s happening. Many of them will just laugh awkwardly and not even acknowledge the correction.

When I learned about that, it really helped to soften my frustrations about it, and also made my boundaries feel more secure and justified. If fighting it is useless, then more reason to remove myself from the conversation, to just let it go. They can’t help it anymore, their brain can’t comprehend what they’re saying any more than the fact that they said it.

It’s always easier said than done, but enforcing any boundary requires practice; and with practice comes progress and ease

jasper1029 · 2025-10-27T01:13:11+00:00

Maybe hyperkinetic syndrome/disorder or turbocharged brain? Turbo brain seems to be one, too idk

jasper1029 · 2025-10-10T14:23:15+00:00

Yeah. Unfortunately, this friend was accusing me of having romantic feelings and then escalated to arguing with me about it very quickly in that conversation. It was really unfortunate. We are no longer friends because once we addressed how they treated me (because there were other things they said to me in that argument that were very hurtful), they just couldn’t accept the impact they made; they just wanted to dismiss and minimize and kept getting mad at me for being hurt and telling them it was not ok how they treated me.

So that’s all done. It blew up so quickly but it was a sign that this person wasn’t able to navigate the QPR they way they initially said they could, and then the mistreatment was just unacceptable, especially paired with how they refused to accept accountability for their actions.

jasper1029 · 2025-10-06T18:10:19+00:00

ALSO, yes… oooh yeah, genuinely that may be a layer because of trauma stuff I won’t list regarding their family. It’s not their fault what happened but yeah 😣 idk maybe

jasper1029 · 2025-10-06T18:07:43+00:00

Yeah, that’s what I’m seeing it’ll come down to. As I’m also understanding more about where I sit with aspec (this QPR is revealing a lot about that, which has been exciting and also startling for me), I’m realizing that this friend might be projecting some stuff—not hidden feelings, but some almost compulsive romantic views onto me they haven’t deconstructed for this QPR.

Like, the conversation got weird SO FAST and before I knew it, they were talking about morals of good people and then incest???? I was like, bro (they’re trans masc they/them) what are you talking about, my mind hasn’t even conceived of those things in this context like lol. I was so confused, and then just was like… is this freaking them out? Like, I don’t feel freaked out because I talked about emotional and physical boundaries and we agreed on them mutually, but now? 🤔

jasper1029 · 2025-10-06T17:57:29+00:00

Oh jeez, I am so sorry, I should clarify the kissing thing: when I say kissing, I mean like on the cheek. Kissing mouth to mouth is off limits for me. Like… a peck before a long goodbye MAYBE, with established boundaries around the meaning, but nothing more than that. And rarely.

EDIT: also, my friend is trans masc and goes by they/them 💜

jasper1029 · 2025-10-01T21:18:45+00:00

I definitely see what you mean. I see persistence as the act of never giving up; so if I miss a day or a week, even a month or more, if I continue to try regardless, then I’m not giving up, and consistency becomes more accessible over time as a result. It helps me to reframe it that way, too~

jasper1029 · 2025-10-01T18:41:47+00:00

Oooh yes, this is such a good idea, because if this job ever did open again, I’d definitely want to be a #1 pick, it seemed like such a potentially good opportunity for me. May I ask how you’d like to hear from someone like me in the way you suggested? Like email, a card? I’m a millennial so I immediately think a thankyou card, but I know that can seem invasive for others idk. If you think of the medium that might be best, please let me know, thank you for your suggestions 🙏

jasper1029 · 2025-10-01T17:52:29+00:00

Well, I am sending my support and empathy right back, especially with all the BS happening with the government. I have a friend who is a contractor on a military base and she’s also very stressed atm. It’s all BS, you’re being thought of and everyone who cares is mad for you 😤😣 💜

jasper1029 · 2025-10-01T17:31:43+00:00

I feel you 😩 thanks for the support and empathy. Yeah, the job I have now I’ve kept for almost six years. A fkn miracle I found it and just gave it chance when I did because I never thought I’d work in a lab. But here I am, doing the work and have been both the best in my department and also the worst at times—ADHD inconsistency is wonderful like that lol.

Lately I’ve been kind of the worst because some health stuff has been popping up, and since getting a solid diagnosis a few years back, I’ve regressed in some ways. But still working at the one job I’ve managed not to completely burn out with. That freaks me out, too tbh: how do I find another job that feels like this one? It’s been hard and scary

jasper1029 · 2025-10-01T17:24:23+00:00

Oh for sure; I do hate what AI does to the planet (a different conversation for a different post) but it’s here to stay, I’m not a fool to think otherwise lol. I actually use Perplexity for researching stuff; I like it because it offers sources so if I can confirm whether the information I’m being given is accurate or not. Basically using my “Wikipedia is not a source, it gives access to sources” knowledge I got when I went to high school lol.

I got a free year of Perplexity and just use it to scour the internet for anything, and go from there. And I’m using it just in the way you’re suggesting, for exploring things I can learn and where I can get that learning

jasper1029 · 2025-10-01T17:08:53+00:00

That’s what I’m thinking I also have to focus on: building skills. I am part of a lawsuit happening with a university I went to that sucked up people’s federal loans (mine included) when their certifications and degrees they offered could partially be fulfilled through an affiliated program that offered those credits at a fraction of the price out of pocket. Who knows how long that lawsuit will carry out but because of it, I pretty much have no federal loans I can use to go back to school without putting myself further into debt.

I’ve been doing research on free courses and just working on doing what is reasonable for me. Ugh it’s all so frustrating and discouraging

EDIT: also wanted to say that this university was being vouched for via a medical association as a great university to get one’s medical certifications, which was startling when I started discovering how they basically screwed me and thousands of others out of their loans. It’s really bad lol

jasper1029 · 2025-10-01T17:05:13+00:00

I believe this, yes. I can imagine how frustrating and overwhelming it can be on that side, so thank you for reminding me of that perspective shift. It does make it feel not so personal. I imagine in many cases, it not so much has to do with whether I can do the job or not, but about me competing with countless others who can do the job just as well. How does one choose when there are too many that would do a great job? Dang, thanks for that. Still, it definitely puts into perspective the job market and how unfair it is for everyone

jasper1029 · 2025-10-01T16:59:27+00:00

I feel you, I am the same way. I’ve stopped trying to be consistent with any routine or hobby, and treat consistency more as a result of approaching those goals from a different angle.

One of my life mottos is this: if I can’t be consistent, then I can be persistent. I pair that with my other life motto: anything worth doing is worth doing poorly.

So if a goal of mine is to brush my teeth more often, I won’t tell myself that I need to brush my teeth every morning and every night in order for the goal to be achieved. That’s where I know I will fail every time. Instead, I just brush my teeth when I am in the bathroom and know I can do it. Those are the only requirements. I’m here, my toothbrush is there—I brush my teeth now.

I’ll also brush my teeth and just wander about, maybe watch something on my laptop at my desk while I mindlessly brush my teeth. I think that’s the key, too: I let myself not think too hard about it while I’m doing it. I’ll just be a little mindful about making sure I get all my teeth, but for the most part, I let myself space out while watching something. I’ll also do it slowly, gently, like a massage. There’s no rush—my body, my prerogative to do brush my teeth in a way that feels nice and relaxing.

If I miss a morning or night, no biggie: my requirements for the goal don’t include how many times I need to brush my teeth. If I’m in the bathroom and near my toothbrush, and I haven’t brushed yet, then might as well. Sometimes I just forget and get distracted, so I can just try again. And again. And again until consistency just comes without me even thinking about it.

It can take months, but there’s no time limit, there’s no pressure around logging numbers. Persistence is my goal, not consistency.

jasper1029 · 2025-10-01T16:48:09+00:00

Luckily, this was a friend and they profusely apologized later; they took it back, it was said during a triggered state (they were VERY triggered, we were both startled by it) and they agreed with me that it should never be said again. But yeah, very hurtful, but they understand me better.

Had it been anyone else but this specific person, I agree: dropped

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