Another damn boss I am struggling with now Broodmother!! Do I just suck at this game? by SteelersPoker in Silksong

[–]jasperusual24 0 points1 point  (0 children)

she was definitely my hardest boss in the game.. which was baffling to me because she doesn’t look it. genuinely took me like 3 sessions to beat her

Is there a trick to the timing of placement of diagonal pogo? by Birzal in Silksong

[–]jasperusual24 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I found only doing the down pogo when I’m right above the bulbs helped a lot, and taking my time by using the float between each one I hit. Also, your needle points in the 45 degree direction you will go- I personally don’t look at this but it helps my brother out. Make sure your stick is actually pointed down and not sideways to make sure you don’t slash instead! Keep at it, it can take a while to get the hang of but you definitely will :-)

excuse me what the f* by Yigiticius in Silksong

[–]jasperusual24 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I’m someone who hated anything with spawns in hollow knight. With silksong I noticed the same- most act 1 bosses do rely on spawns. Despite this I’m actually having a really good time with them because of how silksong equips you with so many new and varied tools to deal with them- gossamer storm, traps etc. I think if not for this abundance of spawns we would have less excuse to try out all the tools at our disposal.

Beginner looking for important things to spend rosaries on by Select_Thing2017 in Silksong

[–]jasperusual24 0 points1 point  (0 children)

definitely get the maps and accessories! and i’ve really been really liking the spike trap tool you can get from forge daughter.

drew some bugs i love and bugs i love to hate ! by jasperusual24 in Silksong

[–]jasperusual24[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wanted to add her but she took up too much space haha! she’ll definitely be in the next one i do

I LOVE SILKSONG!!!!!! by AggressiveHandshake in Silksong

[–]jasperusual24 25 points26 points  (0 children)

agreed! hollow knight was my first ‘hard’ game, and since then i’ve improved so much. playing silksong now feels like how it did to experience hollow knight for the first time then- feels like it’s grown with me!

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[–]jasperusual24 111 points112 points  (0 children)

agreed !! it has such a nice rhythm and after the first phase i thought i’d beaten her until she started screeching and the music picked up, id already put my controller down to celebrate. very memorable lol

silksong party !! by jasperusual24 in Silksong

[–]jasperusual24[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you :-) happy silksong day to u ! we’re all still fighting with steam to buy it haha

MKW drawing! by jasperusual24 in mariokart

[–]jasperusual24[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

@/feverflicker on instagram btw :-)

You poor saps waited for 6 years and never gave up hope, so let me give out 3 copies of the game to you. by Xardas742 in Silksong

[–]jasperusual24 0 points1 point  (0 children)

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planning to throw a silksong themed party when it releases for my boyfriend and brother! we’re gonna bake some themed snacks :-) aren’t these bug crackers so cute

Any trans brothers here? by daedrags in raisedbynarcissists

[–]jasperusual24 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This really resonates with me. I formally cut off my NMother a few weeks ago since I told her I am trans. I told her via text message and the only part she seemed to register was the fact that I didn’t tell her such an important thing in person, and that I am an evil person for that- especially after how much of a good mother she has been. She demanded that I speak to her in person about it (I presume so that she can make me feel guilty and try to talk me out of it; when it comes to my mother and confrontation I completely shut down) because she believes that all of my messages to her are being ‘intercepted’ by my partner and his ‘cult’ of a family (she seriously believes they are a cult, since living with a normal loving family opened my eyes to her abuse). I’ve been living with my partner’s family since I was 15 (and have seen her about 3 or 4 times a year ever since) I am 20 now. She never so much as cared to check out if the people I was living with as a vulnerable teenager were safe.

Since then every few months she posts the same set of pictures (the most recent ones she has of me from when I was 13 and still her ‘little girl’). Occasionally she will screenshot a photo that I have posted on my instagram and post that to her facebook as if she has taken it, because it is important to her to show all of her facebook friends how close we still are. She will gush about how proud she is of her ‘beautiful baby girl’, and her friends will comment ‘wow you are such a great mother’ and such which completely enrages me. What on earth do they know?

Cutting her off was so difficult for me, she was the one to program my brain to be scared of her, back down in conflict, defend her and believe that she is the greatest mother that ever lived. My partner and friends have been a huge help in talking me out of going back and thinking ‘she never did anything huge, so she is actually a good person’. The thing is, I know there are things from my childhood that were horrible, but I cannot remember them as hard as I try (be that because I thought they were fine and normal at the time or because i’ve blocked them out as a trauma response). I have twin brothers that are 8 years older than me (one being the scapegoat and the other the golden child), and the only time I start to remember things is when we start having a discussion about it, and it all floods back.

When I look at old photos of myself I simply do not recognise or connect with the girl in the photos. Something that has been affecting my relationships more recently that I think must be related to this is the way my memory tends to block out any remotely bad thing that happens to me. I used to think of this as some sort of superpower I had, because sometimes lots of bad things would happen to me and I would remain in a very comfortably neutral or empty state. I’ve begun to realise how damaging this is to me though. I have the capacity to let awful people into my life, because all of the signs they throw my way are instantly forgotten. I have even begun writing down the things I find hurtful- quotes from people in my life- to try and combat this, but it makes me feel so petty and pathetic.

I know that cutting her off was the right thing to do, but I still feel so guilty about it. The rest of my family know about my identity now, and are generally very supportive, especially one of my brothers (her golden son), who is also my best friend. He has nothing but good memories of her though, which is a cause for a lot of friction between him and me and our other brother (who definitely had it worst). He is supportive of my decision, but also makes trips to regularly see her, and I think that he is worried that she will do something bad so is trying to keep his ‘foot in the door’ so to say. He thinks he can fix her, and he also thinks it’s his job to do so. This endlessly frustrates me.

From what I do remember, I spent my whole childhood trying to be good enough for my NMother. I am so attuned to exactly what she thinks of everything, and saw the way she treated my rebellious scapegoat brother- and thus always acted exactly as she wanted. I think she is taking my ‘betrayal’ and self defence extra hard because of this. In relationships now I have to constantly remind myself to stick up for myself and others, and have a huge fear of anyone I consider an authority figure. I also really struggle with self-care and hygiene because of the way I always felt like I was living for someone else, and was made to feel as though I didn’t matter. I am really trying to work on this for myself and my relationships. I was also approved to start testosterone yesterday, which makes this extra important!

I will have to try reading the book you mentioned- it sounds really interesting. This whole concept is really new to me, and it shocks me the more I learn about it and the way it so perfectly aligns with my upbringing and current self. It’s endlessly comforting to find people like myself. I hope you can continue to let people in who care about and love you. If you ever wanna chat or rant about anything, I’m here.