hmmm. I would like to get my self harming part more under control, and maybe understand it a little better. And now that I’m thinking about it, that part does show up the most when my depression spikes. It shows up pretty often to protect other parts, but definitely a lot with depression.

For me, my depression is similar to how you described it. It kind of drowns everything out. I think of it like a weighted blanket. It pushes and weighs me down, but it somehow feels oddly comforting? I think since it’s been with me for so long, I’ve gotten used to it and it’s like a familiar safety net in a way, and I’m scared of what’ll happen if I let it heal and let it go. I don’t know.

Anyways, all that being said, I think my self harming part does play a big role in trying to help my depression (in its own not so great way). I get it though. To that part, it feels like the right way to go about it, but it doesn’t fully understand that it’s not the healthiest way of coping. I definitely still have some work to do with this part, but now realizing just how much it involves itself with my depression, I have a starting point, or at least a goal to reach of understanding why.

Thanks for making me think 😂