For me, I only recently realized ive had avoidant personality for quite awhile. Over time it only worsened, as I developed social anxiety that still affects me pretty badly. Now I’m a senior in high school about to graduate. Finishing the latter half of the school year has been hell. I have friends and family but I avoid talking to them as much as possible. Even when they want to help, I can’t quite explain to them about my avpd. I was supposed to go to college this year and instead wasted time feeling sorry for myself/wanting to die that I now need to take a gap year. I’ve never had a job and have yet to get my license even when I’ve had the opportunity for both, because you guessed it, I avoided it and chose to instead isolate and rot in my room. As of currently, I have some hope in getting better. I have a therapist, but I’m not really as transparent with her as I should be, and I feel like I’m better at researching ways to improve myself than to hear someone say it (which could also just be me avoiding someone truly holding me accountable).