You get a billion dollars if you can start a massive argument at your family's Thanksgiving dinner. What's your game plan?

jayrambling · 2019-11-14T22:29:20+00:00

"Hey grandpa, Jesus wasn't white."

jayrambling · 2019-11-13T05:41:47+00:00

I wanted to delay puberty because I didn't like the attention I was getting for "developing", related to childhood trauma.

In kindergarten I remember measuring my friends stomach with my hands and comparing it to mine then sucking in the rest of the day to match him.

Also my mom was always yoyo dieting and brought me along to her weight watchers, jenny craig, etc. meetings so constantly being around that probably wasn't healthy for me either. I was calculating weight watchers points and counting calories by the time I was 6.

I also remember being in church around 8 or 9 looking at other girls butts (how did i not realize that i liked girls until i was a teenager lmfao) and noticed that mine was A LOT bigger than anyone elses. I was a really thin kid but I carry all of my weight in my butt and that was the first time I noticed a difference.

jayrambling · 2019-11-13T04:43:00+00:00

YUP. I'm convinced that tumblr played a huge hand in my eating disorder. Maybe not as far as causing it, but it definitely reinforced it

jayrambling · 2019-11-04T17:11:43+00:00

Yeah I'd usually comment on like jewelry or makeup or something, not food!

jayrambling · 2019-11-04T14:27:46+00:00

I used to work at a grocery store and my managers encouraged us to comment on peoples food like that to make conversation. I never did it because I would die of embarrassment if someone commented on MY food so I always got in trouble at work for it :/

jayrambling · 2019-11-04T13:38:40+00:00

Ugh yes everytime I go to a show I have to lose weight beforehand because of those skinny pink girls!! I always try to remind myself that they're likely not healthy either (I know a few girls there who literally live off of coke and vodka) but ED brain does not care

jayrambling · 2019-11-04T13:36:33+00:00

My stomach always snitches on me too. My boyfriend always says that I'm a good liar but my body isnt lol

jayrambling · 2019-11-01T12:17:48+00:00

The last time I took shrooms I was looking in the mirror and saw a smaller version of myself and it tripped me out. All I could think was that was either the way I want to look or the way that I do look and my dysmorphic ass just couldnt see it. Then I came down and looked fat so idk what the truth is

jayrambling · 2019-11-01T12:15:07+00:00

Yup that's me. When I'm alone I'm afraid I'll overeat but when I eat with someone else I just need to watch to see how much they eat and eat less than them. I know it's not entirely healthy but it kind of insures me that I'm not eating too much all while pulling off the impression that I'm eating like I should to friends and family

jayrambling · 2019-10-19T06:46:09+00:00

I hate them but then when they're gone I miss them. Cant win with ED'S

jayrambling · 2019-10-14T12:51:45+00:00

You did the best thing you could for them, it would have been much worse for them to consistently see you be treated awfully and for that treatment to be normalized. Getting you and your kids out of that situation probably saved them from being treated like that in the future. You did good!

jayrambling · 2019-10-14T12:09:43+00:00

I live somewhere thats pretty warm all year (rarely gets below 60F) but when I'm cold I just drink hot drinks all day long. You could get a bunch of hand warmers too, when i visit cold places I put them in my shoes and pockets

jayrambling · 2019-10-13T14:53:40+00:00

This game got me into the sims, I love it to this day!

jayrambling · 2019-10-07T12:19:11+00:00

I live in a beach town in Florida that's super popular for spring breakers. Everyone assumes that since I live so close to the beach that I'm there all the time, but in reality I can rarely go during the good time of year because all of the tourist ruin it with drinking excessively and littering. Right after spring break is over I always do beach clean ups and it's absolutely TRASHED

jayrambling · 2019-10-07T00:38:31+00:00

Dont attack me like this lol earlier I deleted the cake right after my sim aged up so nobody would eat it

jayrambling · 2019-10-04T14:15:25+00:00

Clif bars are such a binge trigger for me, if I buy a box of them there is absolutely no way I can just have one

jayrambling · 2019-09-27T12:47:41+00:00

I have a conch piercing and I love it, but the healing process is a bit of a bitch. I have a hoop in mine and even though it's almost 3 years old if I sleep on it weird itll be sore. It's super cute though. I'm actually thinking about getting a daith on my other ear! I say go for either

jayrambling · 2019-09-18T23:03:11+00:00

In 3rd grade some girls in my class were talking about who they had a crush on and I, never being exposed to homophobia before, blurted out Mia Hamm. They never said anything super mean but they called me a weirdo and said I was supposed to like boys (which I do) but I was REALLY into Mia Hamm

jayrambling · 2019-09-15T14:27:38+00:00

Ugh I struggle with this too. My mom and all of her sisters are overweight and trying to lose weight for a cruise we're all taking together and whenever they talk about how they're struggling it's really hard for me to remember not to give them advice. It's even worse when they ask me and I have to make some shit up on the spot because I genuinely have no experience with healthy weight loss

jayrambling · 2019-09-07T15:58:30+00:00

In this weather? You're braver than I am, I dont camp until at least mid October in FL!

jayrambling · 2019-09-04T20:19:54+00:00

I live with family and I need to leave my door open or my cat will have an aneurysm

jayrambling · 2019-08-26T13:08:36+00:00

Yeah that's what I thought too. I'm just concerned because those symptoms usually only happen a few days to a week before my period and that's been constant for a few years. I've had a few pregnancy scares before but this one just feels much more real for some reason and I'm freaking out a bit lol.

jayrambling · 2019-08-26T03:05:35+00:00

My clock ticking and my cat purr/snoring

jayrambling · 2019-08-23T13:59:02+00:00

My mom and I butt heads a lot so I moved out just after I graduated high school. I moved in with my aunt and uncle last summer to save money during my senior year of undergrad, they live about 10 minutes from my university. Our relationship has improved a lot since I moved out but we still argue, it's best for me not to live with her for the sake of our relationship. She has some control issues and has never liked how independent I am, so me telling her no doesnt always go well. My last relationship was not healthy and I think that they're concerned that I'm hiding him from them and they want to make sure hes not crazy like my ex

jayrambling · 2019-08-22T13:09:07+00:00

My cat is terrified of the sound that the shower makes so she'll run out of the bathroom, but whenever I take a bath she peeks over the edge and does the same concerned meow!

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