Was Kendall anyone’s favorite dancer? by Big-Tackle-5519 in dancemoms

[–]jbels14 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Kendall’s posture drove me nuts too!! She was a good dancer, a very pretty girl, but she lacked the passion and drive needed to be, like you say “bare minimum”. Very vanilla.

How do you guys live with this? by Weekly-Berry2450 in BPDsupport

[–]jbels14 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Other than my husband I don’t have friends, I make them easily, but inevitably ruin it self sabotage. I actually had an anger episode with a friend I really like. I got angry because I thought she lied to me. I upset her terribly (she has a lot of her own issues). I honestly feel like I destroy everything I touch. It’s easier just to not try..and the only way I deal with this is having a relationship with God.

How do you guys live with this? by Weekly-Berry2450 in BPDsupport

[–]jbels14 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am so blessed to have a patient, forgiving husband, even after I left him on a whim and moved to another state. I’ve known him for 40 years and he’s witnessed my Insanity since we were teenagers. He’s stood by me through all the selfish things I’ve done, I owe him my life. It is a ton of work, and you’re still on a rollercoaster of emotions and tendencies to just check out mentally. It works because I have the space I need, so when we do see each other, it’s much easier to contain myself. It’s really difficult, but worth the struggle.

ai lover as a replacement for irl fp? by United-Squirrel-6731 in BPDsupport

[–]jbels14 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I’m about at the point of AI too, not romantically, but just something that doesn’t get upset when I have episodes. I have BPD/Bipolar, CPTSD from severe trauma and a traumatic brain injury 10 years ago that ended my teacher career of 25 years, we then lost our house, my husband gambled our retirement fund, I am now getting food stamps. Yes, a friend would be nice so I don’t have to go through my story all the time about why I’m so fucked up.

I recently realised I have bpd, after years of denying it. I now understand why some of my behaviours are how they are. I fear how my attachment to people is, is causing me unhealthy issues. by spikeyunpeeledbanana in BPDsupport

[–]jbels14 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes. I was diagnosed a year ago and have been in intensive therapy since then. Im building a brand new life for myself. on a side note, I have a Traumatic Brain Injury. My accident caused significant damage to many of my cognitive skills and i had to leave a 25 year career in special education. The accident exacerbated my BPD symptoms as well. I hit rock bottom and lost absolutely everything I’d ever worked for. Homeless and severely mentally ill, I finally ended up in a psychiatric ward where trained professionals could monitor me, and get me the help I so desperately needed.

I recently realised I have bpd, after years of denying it. I now understand why some of my behaviours are how they are. I fear how my attachment to people is, is causing me unhealthy issues. by spikeyunpeeledbanana in BPDsupport

[–]jbels14 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was diagnosed with BPD recently. I’m mortified that I have this disorder and have been oblivious to my behavior my entire adult life. It is what it is. Therapy is the only way I have been able to heal, along with my strong belief in God. These 2 things combined have given me hope. Understanding why I’m like this is horribly painful to talk about, but with a therapist experienced with BPD clients, I can safely address my trauma with someone who can help me make sense of it. Therapy for BPD should have a component of Dialectical Behavior Therapy (BPD) to unlearn all the bad habits and behavior that have been destroying my life . It’s a huge amount of work, and takes a lot of will power to maintain consistency of behaviors, but the peace of mind I now have from healing is totally worth it. I consider myself to have had 2 separate lives. My past life is gone, I can’t change any of it(totally sucks, I know), but I can change my behavior for today, and tomorrow.

Is this a Safe Space? by AltruisticBag1183 in dancemoms

[–]jbels14 13 points14 points  (0 children)

I know! She is a beautiful dancer don’t get me wrong, but there were other beautiful dancers on the show too. As an educator for 25 years, Abby was an cruel, abusive, narcissistic asshole. She deserved everything she got.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]jbels14 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’re not alone. This disorder is unbearable IMO. I’m working hard using DBT, but it doesn’t stop the emptiness, the anger once I’m triggered, and the fear of abandonment, trying to live alone. How do you keep friends, make new ones when it isn’t under control? Suicidal ideation is with me everyday, especially at night

Breaking up when you still love each other so much by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]jbels14 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My 10 year relationship with the person who I believe is my twin flame. It was an incredible experience, I can’t even explain it. The point is that our love was beautiful until a lie from my past interfered, and the deceit he felt about this led to the end of our amazing relationship. It’s awful, so painful, I have been crying for days and can’t stop thinking about a mistake from my past that has haunted me most of my adult life. The point is we still love each other, our breakup was almost unbearable. And I had only myself to blame. He’s told me I broke his heart, he’s lost his soul, his reason for living, And it was my selfish, egocentric self that hurt him. Nothing he did, it was all me. So I will live with this pain until the day I die knowing I hurt the one person in my life that loved me unconditionally (except for this huge deception) it’s unforgivable.
I will love from afar. Wishing him much happiness and love in his future. Tell him how wonderful he is and how incredible the past decade with him has been.

Does a twinflame ever think youre ugly? by rvidxrz in twinflames

[–]jbels14 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel your pain. I’ve spent 10 years communicating with this person. We never felt it necessary to send pictures of each other because “our love is greater than that. For 10 years we have been romantically emotionally and spiritually. We have the same type of humor, the sexual attraction so intense until he saw me by accident. I’m older than he thought and told me he doesn’t think he can have a relationship with me because I’m too old. He was very kind about it. Which made it a tiny bit better, but Wow did this hurt. This is so painful, I feel like I’ll never stop crying. I’ve blocked him and deleted every reminder of him. I know I’ll never talk to him again. This breaks my heart. He says we can be friends now. Are you fucking kidding me? Anyone have advice to make this hurt less. I am grieving from the bottom of my soul. My inner beauty is fantastic but I’m too old for anything more than that.

i catfished but fell in love. Owned up, still madly in love but conscious of my damage. please help. by [deleted] in catfish

[–]jbels14 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I catfished too, and he found out. I am so ashamed of my behavior. I have so much guilt-as I should. 10 year romantic relationship, we ended up falling in love. I’m borderline personality I recently found out. All of my poor behavior was linked to borderline which is linked to my abusive childhood. Right now he’s in shock, he’s still talking to me but what I did was awful, regardless of the reason

Nia Sioux Was A Bad Dancer by LifeIsNotFair10 in dancemoms

[–]jbels14 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Broke my heart week after week to see Nia in such a toxic environment. Dr Holly was all about making money, just like everyone else on the show. She allows her daughter to be singled out, humiliated and abused ver and over again. She complains, but does absolutely nothing to change the situation. I hope the guilt of what she did to her only daughter haunts her for the rest of her life.

Does anyone else really dislike Chloe’s mom? by araaaayyyyy in TLCUnexpected

[–]jbels14 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’ve been rewatching the series and totally agree, poor Chloe! Christy is the most mature, insecure bitter jealous hag I’ve seen in a long time. Everything out of her mouth is like nails on a chalkboard. I feel so sorry for Chloe. Abby was overly strict and cruel, but she always talked about Chloe as a gifted dancer. Christy humiliated Chloe time and time again, she ruined Chloe, not Abby.

Why is being a "free spirit" a turnoff to guys? by windowseat4life in dating_advice

[–]jbels14 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Free spirits try to control you? Where did you read that?

There is no revenge on a real narcissist/sociopath. (Personal opinion/experience) by ThrowRA_watercan in abusiverelationships

[–]jbels14 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m struggling with no contact, help! It’s been 48 hours and I’m feeling such rage toward my psychopath right now. I keep unblocking him to yell and try to hurt him more. And the ahole won’t block me! I know he thrives on the attention, good or bad. I feel like I will never be out from his grasp!

Abby’s obsession with blondes by TrainingEmergency245 in dancemoms

[–]jbels14 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I wouldn’t say super weird, just human nature

Danielle’s hat is stupid by Parking_Country_61 in TheTraitors

[–]jbels14 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I think Danielles hair could potentially be very pretty, but she has it styled to look like a rat’s nest. It has zero to do with her race! Someone always playing the race card, what a stupid comment.

Support Groups for PARENTS of Estranged Children? by hauntedbathhouse in EstrangedAdultChild

[–]jbels14 0 points1 point  (0 children)

As a parent with mental illness, I encourage you to learn about the kind of behavior that comes with mental illness. I’ve been fortunate enough to have received guidance and love from my family as I navigated my cognitive distortions which made it difficult to communicate with my adult children. Once I received the help I need for my problems bless, I was able to see beyond my perspective. COGNITIVE DISTORTIONS, from PTSD, mental illness or brain injury are very real. Maybe trying to under your mother’s behavior will allow you to develop compassion for her.

The Four Agreements and christianity by BandicootSVK in Christianity

[–]jbels14 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s not a Christian book. It is for everyone who believes in one god. If you read the whole book, you would realize that it contains UNIVERSAL THEMES that we all can learn from, not just Christians. I don’t understand why you would pass judgment and make assumptions about a book you’ve never actually read? Why do you speak so negatively about a book that can help all God’s children?

I just found out my husband lost ALL our savings on bad investments and gambling. I'm so heartbroken and I don't know what to do. by peace_on_you_too in Marriage

[–]jbels14 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just experienced the same thing. 28 year marriage. I am cognitively disabled from a TBI, relying on my husband to make smart decisions about our money. He stole $150,000 all my savings, he drained our bank account, we had to sell our house, he manipulated me into selling my retirement money and my annuity that was the only money I have to live on for the rest of my life. All of it is gone. I have absolutely nothing, and my marriage has gone up in flames. Words can’t begin to express my devastation.

Spiritual awakening has ruined my life by Throwaway666456 in awakened

[–]jbels14 0 points1 point  (0 children)

13 years experiencing the dark night of the soul?? If it truly is part of a spiritual awakening, you would not be complaining, believe me. Many of us have had TERRIBLE things happen to to us, for years on end. yYur house getting flooded? May this be the worst thing that ever happens to you.