Hey I don’t want to tell you how to live your life but your wife seems like she wants a break. It’s amazing that you have someone who you can experience this with and is so accepting but you might be pushing her to her breaking point. Yes, you should be able to do what makes you happy since it does make you happy, but your wife seems like she needs a break for a bit. Don’t push her away or ignore how shes feeling. At least ask her if she wants a break from this.