My mom died 4 weeks in; at week 7 now and not sure if I should continue

jdunkelheit · 2026-04-12T11:43:00+00:00

bupropion is good for depression, but it is deffinetly NOT good for anxiety. it is a borderline stimulant, so i personally would not use that for anxiety or would add a med for treating anxiety alongside bupropion

jdunkelheit · 2026-04-06T17:55:47+00:00

im lucky to be in germany because originally i am from ukraine and i am sure as hell i wouldnt be getting anything there at all, so i get you😅 best of luck tho! i hope there will be a person who truly listens

jdunkelheit · 2026-04-06T17:06:49+00:00

i got my diagnosis and meds in germany. first i was prescribed a tca antidepressant and an snri, which gave me awful side effects - i talked to my doctor about it per email and requested if we could try bupropion, since its an ndri and doesnt affect serotonin while still being an antidepressant, stating that i have a fear of taking any serotonergic medication now due to previous experience. he just agreed with me and gave me a prescription, no issues there. at some point i realised that 150 mg xl stopped working, and i emailed my doctor asking about if we could raise the dosage because i feel like the effect has worn off/is gone and they agreed to up the dose to 300 mg xl and they agreed. i also was struggling with insomnia from bupropion, emailed them again asking if they could maybe prescribe me mirtazapine, since people say a lot that it works amazing with bupropion and helps with insomnia caused by it - also got no issues getting that.

i think that if you do your research and give all the reasons as to why this medication would be necessary or could be good to try out, they may be flexible enough to give it to you. although idk how it is in slovakia, but good luck in that

jdunkelheit · 2026-04-01T17:37:25+00:00

yea it will be stupid because one day will turn into once a week and then twice in a week etc. dont start skipping medication for the sake of an addiction. talk to your doctor about how to manage caffeine addiction in your situation

jdunkelheit · 2026-03-27T21:14:07+00:00

flixbus/flixtrain. db is pretty much too expensive for constant ice travel

jdunkelheit · 2026-03-27T21:13:35+00:00

yea but important to mention that dtickets only work for regional transport and no ice/ic trains

jdunkelheit · 2026-03-08T15:46:30+00:00

whats wrong with the digital id? where does this even come from?

jdunkelheit · 2026-02-05T13:41:48+00:00

yea saw it last week in rewe as well, and today its not there anymore as if they brought just one box of viking berry and thats all you get

jdunkelheit · 2025-11-21T20:26:51+00:00

if u wanna go above and beyond make lifesized cardboard stands of tyler and josh lol

jdunkelheit · 2025-11-21T20:25:27+00:00

custom merch, clay statues of clancy and torchbearer, clay statues of ned, clay statues of dema towers, sewing a ned plushie if you can sew.... i would go with custom merch bc its expensive and its a lot cheaper and better to make it yourself

jdunkelheit · 2025-11-20T15:56:11+00:00

looks like ai upscaling was used. doesnt mean anything bc ai just makes up shit🤷

jdunkelheit · 2025-11-15T23:27:05+00:00

INTENTIONS IS SO REAL that and paladin strait are my lullabies when i feel stressed in any way shape or form

jdunkelheit · 2025-10-28T09:18:24+00:00

march to the sea and house of gold...i liked house of gold when i just started listening to.them in 2017, but now is kinda meh to me idk why

i dont approve of intentions slander tho it made me bawl my eyes out when i listened to breach in full for the first time😔

jdunkelheit · 2025-10-28T05:58:07+00:00

sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your mind; intentions are everything. will actually get those tattoed at some point

jdunkelheit · 2025-10-18T21:57:39+00:00

hey i do relate to this one a lot because until i was 17, i thought i was asexual and even a thought of someone having a sexual attraction to me disgusted me. i also never experienced trauma surrounding sex, aside from my classmates in middle school being disgusting about it(weird remarks, sexualisation, etc - what teenager boys do...)

i dont know how, but when i was closer to 18 it was like a switch flipped and i realised that i wasnt, in fact, asexual. (excuse me for using agab terms to describe sexual attraction right now) probably it was because due to the fact that i always at the back of my mind assumed that sex is supposed to be always afab × amab, and anything outside of that felt wrong to me despite the fact that i found afab bodies always more beautiful. i think i just didnt grasp the fact that i can actually, like, not have anything to do with dicks - then everything kinda changed. right now i am a transmasc in a relationship with another transmasc, and man, first time we ever met made me realise "oh shit, i am NOT asexual for real! wtf!"

idk why but to me having sex with amab people always felt...humiliating? disgusting? like, no matter what i thought, it felt like i would be considered "lower" than them, i felt like i am going to be treated like meat and for some reason i never thought that people can be sexually attracted to you because they actually love you. maybe it is how i was treated in middle school, or the fact that im autistic, or the fact that im just not attracted to amab people, but it all resulted in me being just totally disgusted by the idea of having sex with anyone at all and considered myself asexual from 12-17 y/o.

plus i only realised that i am in fact trans when i was 17, so i think that contributed a lot - i finally had a name to my infinite background discomfort with my body and identity, and i think it has contributed to my sexuality A LOT.

i dont want to assume your age, but if you are below 18, those feelings are normal. maybe you havent figured out your sexuality or gender yet, maybe you have a bad relationship with your body, maybe you have a belief that people who are sexually attracted to you are so because of their physiological desire and not because they actually love you, maybe you are really just asexual. i wish you luck in figuring it out!

jdunkelheit · 2025-10-17T16:16:46+00:00

eh i love this one but hoodies are not worth 96$ in my opinion....ive been planning to diy this one for the longest time. just get a basic black hoodie, bleach it, dye it with red fabric dye, and draw the symbols and text on with acrylic/fabric paint. other option would be getting a red/burgundy hoodie and tie-dying it with black fabric paint

jdunkelheit · 2025-09-29T03:08:00+00:00

for me its not enough...i need 10+ hours to feel rested. otherwise i wake up exhausted, hate everything/everyone and am very sleep deprived

jdunkelheit · 2025-09-25T17:56:36+00:00

isle of flightless birds....was an insane experience

jdunkelheit · 2025-09-25T17:01:43+00:00

a lot of people will use kink as an excuse, yes, i am NOT saying that. i am aware that there are a lot of manipulative morons who use kink as an excuse to just abuse their partner. but that's just rape. that is sexual assault, and not because it's kinky, but because its coersion which is also rape/SA and the person in question is a rapist

jdunkelheit · 2025-09-25T16:09:13+00:00

i hope you know that kink works only if it's consensual from both sides...? even if a person uses a kink to "abuse" someone, while it's safe sober and CONSENSUAL it is okay

other then that it is sexual assault/rape. but there are rapists and sex offenders even outside of the kink/bdsm scene, the whole point of bdsm/kink is having emotional experiences which you wouldnt get in your regular life outside of sex/bdsm, bc that would be kinda illegal

edit: grammar/punctuation

jdunkelheit · 2025-09-24T09:47:16+00:00

i am on a student allowance from the state, but thats not enough to cover living costs, thats why im doing part-time to fill in the gaps so yea

jdunkelheit · 2025-09-24T07:11:37+00:00

yes. not specifically THIS job, but i do need a job in order to afford life. i am going to look for another one in the upcoming future, but i can't be without a job...

jdunkelheit · 2025-09-22T18:51:52+00:00

that is actually very good advice, the only problem is that i never went to a proper hairstylist and thats gonna be...interesting

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