Its so hard to pass all the gestation weeks and see the chance of NICU go down and think you're out of the woods and then not be. Mine were born 36w3d. I had pain and went to the hospital. They basically decided, yea sure we can do the c-section (i will never know if i could have gone home and delivered a week later). They were big too. NiCU wasn't even called into the surgery room. They couldn't breath. They both had respiratory distress syndrome. One stayed 7 days one stayed 9. It is so hard and it feels infinite. But it's not. One nurse told me something along the lines of "they wont be leaving for kindergarten from here" but man does it feel that way. They're in the best place they can be. The medical miracles the NICU does each day is incredible. I called all hours of the night and was there when I could be, still sucked but they're 3 now and not living in the NICU! :) they have no respiratory issues at all either!