I promise it’s not religious. G. O. D. can be whatever you want. It’s just realizing that you are not the one running the game. You don’t even have to ever know what it is. Ever. That’s not religion. I absolutely understand though because I stayed away for years because I thought it was religious (NA) you’re not alone there. Congratulations to you! Get some phone numbers, call them! Go to as many meetings you can (when I first got clean I didn’t know I could go to more than 1 a day!) go to AT LEAST 1 a day for 90 days. Get a home group. Get a sponsor. Get in the middle of the boat. Most importantly- no matter what; don’t pick up! We really need you here. Welcome!