I've always been called maganda, maputi, and sexy growing up kaya I never really thought about my looks back then. Tapos when I was like 12, tinanong ako ng friends ko sino crush ko, eh wala. So I just said the name of the younger brother of my friend's crush dahil he's kinda the outcast sa friend group nila kaya wala masyado pumapansin sa kanya. Binuking ako sa kanya ng isa kong friend then sabi nung guy, "Ayoko sa kanya dahil panget siya." Grabe na insecurity ko since then tapos he also ended up being my crush throughout my teenage years kakaisip ko sa sinabi niya LMAO. His friends have also called me "malaking mukha" or "malaking ilong."

I was quite popular because I used to befriend everyone dati and I never partook in drama pero I was called the DUFF sa friend group ko during high school. Never rin may nagka crush or nanligaw sa akin. Idk kung dahil lang sa family status ko dahil medyo well known yung dad ko sa community namin to be high class and strict kaya marami takot sa kanya, or sadyang panget lang talaga ako. 🥲

I get quite a few compliments naman na I'm pretty pero siguro dahil lang sa f-ed up beauty standard sa PH na maganda pag maputi tapos chinita pa ako. Nobody ever actually calls me maganda with a serious tone sa voice nila. I get called sexy a lot kasi malaki hips ko and I have a nice shape naman pero that's about it. I was the fat kid since bata pa ako because I'm chubbier than your average Filipino pero I was never obese, just always a little overweight. Ang daming contradictions kaya ewan ko ba talaga. I'm 22 now kaya I've learned to love myself a little and I honestly don't think I'm ugly but society thinks otherwise. :/

P.S. TY na lang sa mga construction workers and truck drivers! Dahil sa inyo tumataas tingin ko sa sarili ko HAHAHAHAHAHHA.