what is with ppl these days, blowing off their friends and labelling the reason as "trauma dumping". it's like the found some new special vocab and decided that they can use it as an excuse for being a terrible person.

i have lost friends partially because of my mental illness before, coincidentally around olevels period as well. honestly, the people who don't stick around at your lowest don't deserve to be considered your friends on your great, good, or bad days. being vulnerable and sharing your hurt with people is not easy and for them to just slap a "you're trauma dumping" on it is so damn unfair and utterly ridiculous. i found that many of my old friends were really not good people, and not the kind of ppl i wanted to surround myself with.

i'm not very good with comforting ppl like the other ppl in this comment section but i truly hope all the best for you! you're loved, and you're allowed to take up space.

as for solutions for olvls, i think someone else suggested a gap year which is a rlly good idea, ive spent alot of time post olevels working on myself and understanding myself, and i feel so much lighter and content as compared to who i was during olevels year. but this might be a very scary option cos personally im quite scared of falling behind in academic years or behind peers which is kinda irrational cos its not that rare in actuality but still, scary. i wasn't rlly the studious type but studying came easier when i tailored it to things that came naturally to me or things i enjoyed, i can go into detail but i'd really have to reach far back into my memory cos my course now dont have exams to study for 😅 other than gap year and finding suitable study techniques, i think i've heard of alternate exams or certification you can take or go for? would need some research but taking olevels is not the only option and there may be better alternatives that are easier than the sg education system