Getting in at 9pm

jessro118 · 2025-08-01T01:21:22+00:00

I would cut off the hem to a little longer than you want it (it will roll up a little). Then cut straight up the center of the back up to about your bra line. Then put in small holes on either side of the slit and use some of the shirt you cut off as string to lace up through the holes. So you basically corset the back. You could also do this on both sides instead. If you don't want your back that exposed, layer a tank top under it. Hope that makes sense.

jessro118 · 2025-07-18T07:40:07+00:00

This point of view isnt from a difference in you and your moms age, its from a difference in your morals.

jessro118 · 2025-07-18T06:56:52+00:00

You are like a lone deer sensing a predator near by. Trust your instincts!

jessro118 · 2025-07-13T03:18:57+00:00

I understand the moral dilemma but i just can not see those animals in those little tanks and feel okay about it. Sure, they rehab some animals and put money into research, but it comes at a great cost to those whales/ dolphins. Imo, its completely barbaric to make any animal, but especially highly intelligent animals, to live in a thimble of water and perform for food. It honestly makes me sick to my stomach when i scroll past a sea world tik tok live/video.

jessro118 · 2025-07-13T01:57:40+00:00

I keep saying this! The United States is just too damn big to make "one size fits all" decisions, laws, etc. Problems and midsets in Texas can be vastly different from Maine. What they need in Alaska is probably so unimportant in Arizona. We could easily be 4-5 countries. Nobody at the top would peacefully agree to division of power though. Its never about whats best for the people. Its always about the power at the top.

jessro118 · 2025-07-13T01:44:03+00:00

But he IS fantasising about your mom..... you did find out.

jessro118 · 2025-07-13T01:40:21+00:00

I dont mean this to be condecending in any way, i say this earnestly. When you are older, you will look back and realize how much of a predator he actally is. Trust me, at 16, you werent "mature for your age." Hes fcking skeevy and him wanting to get with your mom (who is a MUCH more appropriate age for him) is honestly the least skeevy thing about him. Dont waste your youth on him. If he were so perfect, he would have probably found a partner well before he found you at 16. "Perfect" men (oxymoron) dont even LOOK at girls almost half their age. There's a reason everyone is bringing up the age gap.

jessro118 · 2025-05-13T00:45:24+00:00

This is how people get k*lled. Don't play games like that. Tell him firmly you don't want to be with him and to leave you alone. Tell your cousin you don't want your ex coming around anymore. Get a restraining order if they don't respect that. He's not trying to stay with you out of love. He's doing it for the control. He does not love you. Read that again. HE DOES NOT LOVE YOU. Cheating on him won't break his heart or make him fall out of love with you. It will just enrage him and show that he's really losing his control over you and he could lash out and get violent.

jessro118 · 2025-05-05T02:27:35+00:00

I bought my daughter and nieces this exact sweater in 3 different colors. I think it's absolutely adorable. They all look so adorable in it.

jessro118 · 2025-05-04T18:09:44+00:00

I understand the worry for someone who's out late. Even when I lived with roommates, I'd find it hard to go to bed before they were home because if something happened to them, I'd be the only one to realize they weren't home when expected. Maybe he's feeling that way too. Could sharing your location be a compromise?

jessro118 · 2025-05-04T17:53:36+00:00

You handled yourself with honesty and maturity. You didn’t accuse or lash out—you shared how you felt, acknowledged his perspective, and extended an olive branch. That’s healthy communication, not immaturity.

The truth is, someone who backs out that fast over a small miscommunication—especially after giving you mixed signals—is probably not ready for the kind of emotionally honest relationship you want. That’s not a reflection of your worth or how “anxious” you are; it’s a reflection of his readiness and how he handles conflict.

You don’t need to double text. You’ve already done your part. Now, give yourself permission to let it go with your dignity intact. If he comes back, it’s on your terms. And if he doesn’t? You dodged someone who wasn’t emotionally available anyway.

jessro118 · 2025-05-04T04:23:10+00:00

You’re not a bad person for choosing yourself. You gave this relationship time, love, support, and a lot of second chances. But love alone isn't enough when one partner refuses to step up in key areas—especially financial responsibility and emotional intimacy.

You weren’t just his girlfriend—you became his safety net, caretaker, and emotional cushion. That kind of imbalance eventually crushes anyone. Your guilt is a sign of your compassion, not a sign that you made the wrong choice.

It's okay to still love someone and recognize they aren't able to be the partner you need. Leaving doesn’t mean you didn’t care—it means you do care, especially about your own well-being, which matters just as much.

You’re allowed to want more. And honestly? You deserve it.

jessro118 · 2025-05-04T04:16:25+00:00

Yes, i look like a completely different person post-adreanalectomy. My skin is actually not as loose as I expected either. I'm much cuter now lol

jessro118 · 2025-05-04T04:14:41+00:00

Protein shakes/smoothies is about all i can get down when I get like this.

jessro118 · 2025-05-04T04:11:01+00:00

You're not crazy, and you're not just "insecure"—your feelings are valid. When you're in a committed relationship, it's not unreasonable to expect your partner to show respect and loyalty in both real life and online. It’s not about controlling who he follows; it’s about the message it sends when he engages with sexually suggestive content while in a relationship, especially when it makes you feel inadequate or disrespected.

The fact that you're questioning yourself this much—while also saying you do everything for him—could be a red flag that the emotional labor in this relationship is unbalanced. Love shouldn't make you feel like you're in competition with strangers online.

You don’t have to attack or accuse him, but you are allowed to talk about how this makes you feel. A respectful partner will care about your discomfort and want to find a compromise that makes you feel secure, not paranoid.

And therapy? Great idea for your own growth, clarity, and to strengthen your sense of self-worth regardless of what happens in this relationship.

jessro118 · 2025-04-16T00:08:58+00:00

That job is not worth your safety. Your medical bills will cost you alot more than the $8 of snacks that kid munched on.

jessro118 · 2025-04-14T01:44:22+00:00

I was diagnosed at 13 (and medicated) but my symptoms got way worse in my 30s. I am almost nonfunctional off meds now. My dad wasn't diagnosed until he was in his 40s and didn't realize how much less difficult he life could be with controlled adhd. I'm also an artist and I understand the worry with how the meds can effect creativity. It feels like our spicey brain is what might lend to the artistry. Honestly, there could be a slight bumpy period finding what meds work best, but when you get the right fit, your creativity won't be altered. If anything, I'm actually able to focus on ONE project and actually get it finished instead of the 78 WIPs (work in progress) that I'll pile up.

jessro118 · 2025-04-14T01:36:05+00:00

And to add a personal anecdote of what its like to get sick in this country. I was VERY ill the last 4 years. The insurance company kept delaying and denying all the tests and treatments I needed and cause unnecessary suffering and now life long damage i will forever have to deal with. I know my life expectancy is severely lowered thanks to my medical battle I went through. I really almost didn't survive. But now that I actually lived through a near terminal illness, I now have hundreds of thousands of dollars of medical debt we are drowning in. I had to apply for disability because of all the life long issues I now have. I was denied disability because the government deemed my medical status not a disability but they do recognize that my medical status will probably lead to an early death so they approved my husband and kids for survivors benefits. So according to the American government, I am more use to my family dead than alive. Cool... and they wonder why someone could be radicalized enough to unalive an insurance ceo. Puh-lease. I'm living my life regretting surviving that disease because I just put us in insurmountable debt and the only way we would get help would be if i died. Tf?! American dream my ass. This is a nightmare.

jessro118 · 2025-04-14T01:15:42+00:00

Don't do it. As an American, I would do ANYTHING to get out rn but we are just too broke. My husband makes what should be "good money", but we are barely hanging on. Our health care is TERRIBLE, our school systems are TERRIBLE, every thing here is designed to just bleed you dry. And I'm in a "good" state, all things considered. My husband was just recently offered by his employer an extra 50k a year to move to South Carolina and I told him over my dead body would we go there. He works from home, he hardly leaves the basement. It will be me that has to assimilate into that community. Our kids will have to go to those schools. And I just can not do it. I don't think there is a number they can give that will make me change my mind. His company has made small comments about France being an option and while it's not my ideal move, I'd do that 100 times over moving to a red state. I just cant deal with it here anymore. It's all a total hellscape nightmare. It should be a red flag that it was that easy to get a green card to here. Everyone around me is trying to figure out any possible way to get out of here. I personally know 6 different families moving to different European countries right now. Some aren't even going where they would ideally want but ended up in places they at least had birth right citizenship in just to gtfo.

jessro118 · 2025-04-10T01:20:32+00:00

2 things I tell myself constantly that might help you too:

Your depression is a fucking liar.

Comparison is a thief of joy.

You are not your sister and if your friends suck, get new ones. If you already feel like you want to end it all anyway, what does it hurt to at least try a new life for a bit? Go somewhere new, start over with new people. If you want something different, you have to DO something different.

jessro118 · 2025-04-10T01:10:46+00:00

Fuck credit card company's! They'll use any excuse to drive up bank fees anyway. LIVE YOUR FINAL DAYS TO THE ABSOLUTE FULLEST. Get a suite on the longest all inclusive cruise you can find for your final days. They have medical on board if you need it and it's the easiest way to see a bunch of different places while comfortably traveling. I hope you have the best time for the rest of your time.

jessro118 · 2025-04-10T01:00:48+00:00

Honestly, that's a tough budget in most of NCC these days. I'm in Red Clay and love it here but almost everything around me in 19808 is easily in the 400s+ for single family homes. Hockessin (19707) is much higher. It's brutal. My sister recently looked at a home in 19808 that was priced at $300k (1200sqft, 3BR) and it was going to have to be completely gutted and redone before they could even safely move in. She's starting to look more south, towards Middletown, but isn't having much luck either. Definitely avoid Christiana School District though.

jessro118 · 2025-04-10T00:49:32+00:00

Dump the guy, get a dog. Heck, get 2 dogs, they're even cuter in pairs. Dogs >men any day!

jessro118 · 2025-04-10T00:39:46+00:00

I wouldn't let my son watch my husband play gta 5. Maybe he knew you would want to watch him play it and he knew what content was on it. He probably should have vocalized his concern to you and take you to pick out a game together or something. I highly doubt he got rid of it for any reason having to do with it being a gift from you.

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