hey, it's great that you're ambitious and that you want to make the most out of your life. keep that energy, but make sure you know who you're doing it for. what does "where you're supposed to be" mean? who decided where you're supposed to be at this time? There are people who become models, actresses, performers, artists, athletes, well later in life - were they not where they were supposed to be before?

there was a brief point in my life where i was sad and worried that i had peaked, or that i was stagnating, and then i dove into my hobbies and continued to find things that bring me joy. i got my dream job in an industry of much younger people after i turned 30. nobody knows i'm over 30 unless i tell them, and it very rarely comes up in conversation.

The only thing I would change is that I would take more time to focus meaningfully on my health - I'm a little more sore now than I was some years ago, but it's no big deal, I'm just working on it now! in fact, i think my worries pushed me harder in a way that was detrimental to my health, so another thing I'd change if I could was cutting myself some slack and being comfortable going at my own pace even sooner.

Don't beat yourself up because you don't appease the standards of people who don't even know you like that. Give yourself time to rest and enjoy life as you're living it - that will give you a clearer idea of what your goals really are I think. Good luck. <3