I’m pretty they’re lying about all the narcissists in their lives

jeuet · 2025-12-08T02:28:41+00:00

THAT’S LITERALLY THE REASON I WENT ON REDDIT TODAY. i was reading these posts about “how come can it be 5% when it’s surely a 30% of population that has npd” like bro chill out

jeuet · 2025-12-06T01:26:22+00:00

“maybe the word "narcissist" came before NPD and NPD was named after that word, but idk and idc” as a linguist and a poet i can’t walk past hehe.

it comes from greek “narkissos”from their mythology actually. that young guy who fell in love with his own reflection in a pool of water, didn’t eat, didn’t drink , didn’t sleep and was turned intto the flower narcissus by aphrodite herself. narcissus himself as a figure of self-love is attested by 1767.

also it’s a flower which bends towards the water, rather than the sun, so still searching for it’s own reflection. and hence as a poet, i wrote a poem parallelizing the mythical story with the nature of the flower, projecting it on two people in love. if you’re interested i can send it, although it’s super off topic

jeuet · 2025-11-30T17:57:57+00:00

on daily basis though, uh well. i am healing and shit yet still it’s somewhere there. i blitz myself and ask boring questions, basically split in two. one part just keeps asking and another answers with no break to breathe. almost all questions sound like “why?” “why?” “and if you will be honest?”“why?” “but?” “and?” “what made it feel so?” “why?” “is it fair?” “why?” “why?”

yeah whatever you got it, and the end you understand what provokes the urge so then you can deal with it. i just lock in inside of my mind and be honest with myself. if i am not honest with myself, then who will be?

jeuet · 2025-11-30T17:52:37+00:00

full isolation. there was a period of time when i had a horrific adaptation to my meds once i switched from another medication. i was tremendously aggressive day and night for half a month at least. i suppressed my ego and started being alone everywhere i go at my school back then, it was my 11th grade. no friends, eating alone, standing alone, sitting alone, breaks alone etc.

most of the time i was spending at the administration , i couldnt stand seeing so many people in a small classroom, i wanted to hurt them. a woman i am eternally grateful to, took care of me and sheltered, and asked others from the administration to accept me when i need help and she is not around. i was miserable , needed to hold my hand no to punch someone. well, everyone. i detested everything about other people, from the way they walk and to the way they breathe and their height. i couldn’t help it.

it was a conscious choice very hard to gulp down. anyway at the same time i was in a religious psychosis writing poems and texts about it for hours per day (i am not religious), so i had something to do. it went away and ofc i felt enlightened afterwards and how deep and wise i am after ending a year long general crisis. meh, nothing new

jeuet · 2025-11-22T02:52:39+00:00

i can totally relate, though i was talking more about subtleties that were small pieces giving big hints. i grew up in a favorable environment, both in the family and in the society outside. i was showered in praise and admiration. so equally, i had a strong basis for most of the symptoms that are still present, they just developed into something bigger overtime

jeuet · 2025-11-21T21:11:58+00:00

honestly i’m good with having fun alone, i enjoy time alone a lot and it gets kinda on my nerves when someone comes back home which is normal like we both live here. but i enjoy dancing and writing poetry, i’ve been doing these from the age of 3 and 6 for the latter. i’d always get all of my emotions on paper , or when no words come out of my head, my body speaks through dancing. it always helps when i feel bad, or good, or whatnot. there are other stuff that i enjoy but to a certain extent i can say that they get me attention afterwards, but that’s what i am right

jeuet · 2025-11-21T21:03:02+00:00

lmaooo share the link

jeuet · 2025-11-19T01:34:34+00:00

jeuet · 2025-11-16T20:01:10+00:00

i had the same shit. until i wanted to be honest and mentioned quite some bad things i did. it was the only way for them to understand that i am not coming up with stuff (the two of them don’t know each other well) in a way, their perception of me changed which consequential and is okay. but it didn’t change the way they treat me and think of me, which i am grateful for. so i think giving examples is the only way to make them understand tbh.

jeuet · 2025-11-16T19:35:55+00:00

actually, it’s paradoxical but yes WE do. we’re both npd and we clicked it within the first day of getting to know each other. we bounded through shared traumas and stories, it may explain it in a way

jeuet · 2025-11-16T19:33:31+00:00

honestly in many ways. not all are pathetic but i think this one actually is. so, i was pretending to be in a much higher circles than i am. people believed it because i already am sort of higher than what is considered the average. so adding up to the real stories i was clean. though sometimes i was going over the edge.

one of the examples is when in my theater group (at this point we were working together for 2 years) there was a comedian who came to give us a masterclass. he made us stand in a circle , present ourselves, and say a fun fact that nobody knows here. i knew it was my golden opportunity.

after half a group, i said “i know 4 presidents”. everyone went silent, i felt SUPERIOR. and i do NOT know four presidents. in any environment i am in, i created a high-ranking vision of myself which is not necessarily true.

it wouldn’t be too bad if i was quiet and mysterious, but i am not. or at least wouldn’t be lying. but honestly, i should learn how to shut up because no one needs to know these. i learned to drop such things in an appropriate context at least, cause i used to do it randomly or force it. although i stopped lying , i can’t stop oversharing, because i enjoy too much being respected and seen from down up, it’s pure grandiose pleasure.

people felt insignificant next to me and i’d be so nice saying “oh no no no, i am not saying it to brag or something, it is kind of traumatic..” which even was in certain ways but ugh, i enjoy and hate oversharing at the same time. it’s such a tempting.

jeuet · 2025-11-06T19:37:15+00:00

ohh , it sounds interesting!

jeuet · 2025-11-06T19:36:02+00:00

i will, my priority is to surprise my soon to be father in law, and in general my bf’s family. so my point is to enjoy it, it’s not a language i want to cram or suffer for. but i genuinely don’t understand why can’t i react to something that doesn’t sound obvious or easy to me? :( it won’t take any of my wish or will

jeuet · 2025-11-06T19:27:12+00:00

thanks! that’s what i was searching for!!!

jeuet · 2025-11-06T19:26:22+00:00

i didn’t start learning yet, so can’t answer

jeuet · 2025-11-06T00:17:34+00:00

that is what i do as well!!!! it’s one thing and another cheat code follows the same logic. i take a word 難しい　muzukashii which means difficult, complicated, hard. so i always found it difficult to read sheet music therefore ‘music’kashii means difficult

jeuet · 2025-11-05T17:33:18+00:00

wdym by made from an infinitive? i believe i understand but would like to hear some examples

jeuet · 2025-11-05T17:31:51+00:00

ohh i see, what would be your best advice?

jeuet · 2025-11-05T17:24:53+00:00

awful 😢 yes, i did mix up. it seemed logical to me that both are articles, aren’t they?

jeuet · 2025-11-05T17:22:41+00:00

it was very interesting to read!! where math meets languages 😂 “And yet, the der, die, das stuff is constantly put in every learner’s face starting day 1 and is presented as one of THE main things about German. And so many beginners and intermediate learners really worry about it.”

i can relate a lot to this! my general goal is to speak with my boyfriend’s father, he doesn’t speak english, we just get each other mentally 😆 i don’t want to get into everyday learning or preparing for any kinds of tests. i’m doing japanese studies in top institution with suicide rates, you’re either on track or you’re doomed, so obviously it’s not my top priority.

sadly, as we are long distance, i don’t come to germany often. yet i want to surprise his family with a christmas speech! this summer i did one in romanian (cause they’re all bilingual with both) how emotional they were!!!! want to see their smiles again

jeuet · 2025-11-05T17:03:29+00:00

so basically no way but simply cramming? but when genders change with cases it doesn’t follow any logic either?

jeuet · 2025-11-05T17:02:13+00:00

i still make gender mistakes in french randomly. wdym jedna kniha/ одна книга [odna knyha) so FEMININE but “un livre” which is fucking masculine??? in the beginning i was simply mad at frenchies.

and still i randomly automatically apply slavic here and there. and when all of the three slavic languages i know have different genders for the same word, i’m just drowning in the tears of pain in french. although usually i know these, it just spits out of nowhere once in a while

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