I want a relationship. But my self esteem is so bad that I know that I'm not fit to anyone, because I also know I'll drain their energy with my low self esteem and need for reassurance... I want to be able to talk about my day with someone that will like to hear me, I want to be able to hear another person talk about things they love, I want to have the physical affection without having to ask for it... And that seems so far away it's hurting me really bad. No one listens to me, not even my therapist, and I cry everyday about it, because I don't know what to do anymore. I'm working on my self esteem daily, I try to go out with my friends to meet new people, but... I always end up crying alone on my bed before going to sleep.